is it too late to heal?

so. im sitting on the couch in a bra and my work pants, smoking a cigarette. i've been thinking about this online journal thing for quite some time. see, i used to publish this zine, and it was pretty much my journal. and its been like 5 years since i could mindlessly publish my soul. somehow, i feel the time has come again for me to make my thoughts public. is this self indulgent?
anyway.
i have to leave for work in half an hour. im frustrated today, as with many days, bc i woke up alone and bored. thats the problem. my life has lost all of its excitement. im in this mire of school and work and antisocial behavior. i got tired of rebelling against the system, so now i play literati. accomplishing just as much as i did when i was an activist. nothing.
maybe i need a hobby. maybe this will do.