is it too late to heal?

this is it, its the end of the line for me. i've said this so many times but this is the last time i am going to say it. i've always been, from the minute we met, yr escape plan. this girl that amazes you, and you make up all these feelings to go along with it. when there is something wrong with the real girl in yr life, you gravitate to me. but as soon as it begins to slip away, you reject me. you always pass me up, you always choose someone over me. not just this time. you did it with suzanne too. you told me how unhappy you were with her, and how badly you wanted to be with me, and when she let you go, you loved her again. i think that if you could, you would keep me at arms length forever, holding on, imagining that i might still be there to catch you when you fall out of love. BUT I WON'T BE. you had yr chances, and i wasn't the one you wanted when push came to shove. so fuck you, and all of those words you say, those MEANINGLESS EMPTY PHRASES that mean nothing. bad things happen to good people. maybe i'm too trusting. but i'm better off without you, you fucking cheated on her with me, so whats to say that if you had chosen me, you wouldn't have gone behind my back and screwed some other girls? fuck you, fuck you, fuck you.