is it too late to heal?

... when people die, they take a piece of us with them ...


adam would have been 24 today. or yesterday, its after midnight. i remember this one time.. it was the middle of winter, and i had to write this concert review for my music class.. only thing was i hadn't been to a show in forever, so i looked in the voice and found out that the queers were playing that night, at the knitting factory. i called up adam to see if he wanted to go.. he was working on his thesis. but he dropped everything to go with me, because he knew i wouldnt go if i had to go alone, and he was a good friend. these two drunk kids kept walking into us at the bar, then there was this homeless man yelling while we were walking home, we laughed and we shivered, it was so cold that night.. and i know i thanked him for coming, but i wish i would have thanked him more often, like every day after that. or every day before that for being such a great person. but now yr gone, and i wish i could hug you and play video games or watch wrestling or any of the stuff we used to do.. i wish you could have known how much we appreciated you.