is it too late to heal?

gille loves alkaline trio!!! aaah. so. um, alkaline were so good, as i knew they would be. i'm still drunk. i had like 9 shots. of tequila. yum yum. they tried to stop me, but i couldnt. i ran into lauren, whom i havent seen since pace days, and she asked me if i wanted to be in the vagina monologues again. so yay, maybe i'll be in it again, which would be fun, i've done it twice. anyway. so of course the opened with the love for fire song .. soooooo good. they played maybe i'll catch fire and blue in the face (YAY!!!), and.. good stuff. honestly i can't remember what songs they played really. cuervo really interfered. we danced and sang, and about halfway through candace and i made our way all the way up to the front. we were so happy, being excited and yay. i was proud of us for making our way through all the pits and crowd surfers. i havent done that in so long. i've been content to watch from a distance, but this time i was drunk and i wanted to dance waaayyyy up front. they were SO GOOOOOD. they played radio too, but not fatally yours or clavicle or stupid kid or the poinsetta poison rain song.. but its all good. we shall see them again, and often. candace and i have vowed to become alkaline junkies. we had so much fun, i wish we were still there. we got home and i felt like crap but we ordered anytime and ate greasy food and now im eh still drunk but ok. must sleeeeep soon, bc i feel like crap and i can barely see. oh and ryan lost a lens to his glasses in the pit. and john lost his button down, and some kid tried to steal his hoodie. not cool. however, i had my brooklyn hoodie and ryans new alkaline hoodie on my bad and both were fine. i got a coffin shirt. i wanted the pullover hoodie but they ran out. ALKALINE TRIO ARE SO GOOD!! aaah ahaahhhhhh im still in this crazy state of elation. we got all dressed up and we wore short skirts and dress shirts and heels and we fuckin made it to the front and guys hit on us (hahah) and ryan almost got in fights with kids he thought were too young to appreciate alkaline.. candace and i smoked a cigarette downstairs and some staff member said we couldnt, that we had to go to the stairs or into the bathroom. blah blah. drinking sans smoking doesnt work.
fuckin, i opened chevys this morning and now its almost 3 am. i was really busy, and it was me and chris ray upstairs. i used to hate him, but hes nce to me now that im friends with bart and baxter, and i come to every single show. he used to call kimand me groupies, but we argued that we arent bc we've never slept with memebers of the band.. blah blah. iim off tomorrow though. YAY. im gonna sleep late. then ill go home, and im thinking about going to see the community service project. it kinda bums me out to see them, to see chaz and think of all the things i did wrong, but my girl jamie gates is the bassist now and i love her to little tiny pieces, we've been close since 9th grade orchestra (we bonded over tori amos) and i cant not go and see her play bc it makes me sad to see him. itll be especially hard this time, considering that last time i hadnt apologized. but then i did and he said some stuff that i wish i didnt know...... but. thats my deal.
anyway. i think i cant see, my contacts are like stuck to my eyeballs and i feel like im not so drunk, and i hate getting the still awake hangover.. but im drinking my gatorade which restores electrolytes!
must sleep now, sweet dreams of alkaline rocking and being the super great band they are!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!