is it too late to heal?

i think im trapped in my mind. i always think im ok till something small happens and everything disconnects. im not going to try to explain it. i just cant make anything work bc my mind steps in and fucks me up. its really windy and the bathroom door just came open and i almost had a heart attack, no kidding.

i am fairly agile. i can bend and not break.
or i can break and take it with a smile.
i am so resilient. i recover quickly.
i'll convince you soon that i am fine.

thanks, dashboard, for speaking my mind yet again.
i think im worried that i dont know who i am anymore..