is it too late to heal?

im waiting to hear from antonia. its 6 pm, and im getting antsy about being too close to manhattan right now. candace got home a little while ago, she's unpacking and we're listening to alkaline trio. i played guitar for a little while before. i have been trying to stretch my fingers like bart said. i looked up the chords for "hands down." i have a webpage that shows chords, but im having troulbe tuning my guitar flat. for some reason, the E string doesnt like to tune to eb.. i have to listen to it, i think, but i dont have any way to play it.. i only have it (the acoustic one) in burned cds, and our cd player doesnt play burned cds anymore. i cant wait till alkaline trio come back to new york. i feel like im going through withdrawal. they were on letterman the other day, but it wasnt the same. booo. i wanna get gothed out again and dance around like the happiest girl in the world. HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD. fuck the enigma for not showing up, it won't matter when im dancing to the electric blanket song.

i shall play guitar again, i think.. eh. maybe ill just sit here and listen to alkaline. though the cd is over in the 1 or 2 songs. boo..

xo.