is it too late to heal?

soo excited right now. SOOOOOO excited. the enigma has said he would make an appearance tomorrow for an afternoon nap. i can hardly contain myself. seriously. i was all giddy at work (i shadowed lee for like 20 minutes while we were doing roll ups, he got so mad ahaha).. he wanted to come over tonight but he was too tired, so he said he would come right when he gets out of work tomorrow at 1. which means he'd get here between 2 and 230. unless he drives fast and there is no traffic. but he has to be back on LI at 5. which is wayyyy boo, but thats just his style. show up for 2 hours, stay longer than he should, but still only like 3 hours.. and go back to his regular life. sigh.. im gonna ask him to drove me to LI with him, though, which means free ride! woo. AND CUDDLES!! im so excited. im kinda like ugh bc he said he wants to watch a movie, which means our nap will take place on the couch. he loves my couch though, so i guess i should have only assumed that naptime would take place in such a confined place. plus it gets bizarrre after a while, when the sexual tension mounts. its like we're facing the tv, so i have my back to him. so then its like.. should i get up and come back and face him or something? how can i rub his belly if my back is to him? so i'll have to figure out a way. maybe ill make him lay on his back and ill lay beside him. hmm.. but the couch isnt very wide. its a futon. ill figure something out. the day wont be complete without belly rubbing, and i will not hear of it not occuring. i messaged with him practically all night again, which made me happy. he was saying that all my working deserved extra hugs, and that i should have naked sleeps tonight, but i was like "no i reserve those for you, bc its not as fun when there is no you involved." ehehehee.

so anyway i am going to bed in anticipation of waking up at 10. because i can never sleep when he is coming over, i get too excited and anxious, and i have to wake up. ill lay in my bed till 12 or so, get up and shower.. then of course, i'll find he isnt coming and my hopes wll be crushed and i will be sad, but ill get on the lirr and head out there to avoid nyc for new years. wish me luck...