is it too late to heal?

watching ex-treme dating. bored. blah. john was just here for like an hour and a half, telling me he hates me while hugging me. so annoying. he is the most needy boy ever. i have told him so many times that i am not feelin it, we're just friends. and i am so mean to him, SO MEAN. but he keeps coming back. its like, if i wanted a puppy dog, i'd get a puppy. you know? and i dont. in fact, i dont even want a real puppy. i want a kitty, a nice, independant creature who wants to cuddle sometimes and do other shit sometimes. not someone who is going to be on top of me, like "what can i do for you? are you happy? do you need anything?" snuggle, snuggle. no. why cant boys i actually like be as adoring as he is, or as the crappy bus boys are? but no, i get the "you are so amazing.... but i want to be with her." or whatever else. fuck it.