Saturday, January 17, 2004
and yr taste still lingers on my lips like i just placed them upon yours and i starve... i starve for you.. -dashboard "standard lines"
so.. i went to the show last night. i had a really good day yesterday, lets start with that, shall we? well, i woke up at 1, and i was surprisingly ready to go. i didnt hit snooze or anything i was like "up and at 'em!" so i got up and i showered, collected a bunch of my cds, and i was off to jamaica for the LIRR. missed my train by 5 minutes (grr) but i got one in like 20 mins, and i met up with my friend mike in mineola. we went to his house and got the directions to the show, then we went to this little italian restaurant in glen cove. i had fettucine alfredo, which i got on my shirt, of course. it wasnt the best fettucine i'd ever had, but it was pretty good. the bread was phenomenal, it had bits of sundried tomatoes baked into the top. i dipped it in olive oil and parmesan cheese. mm... so then we set off for wading river and it was an easy ride, no traffic, good music. we got there and the john stamos project was going on, so we were like "yah, lets go smoke a cigarette" cos neither of us were feeling them. there were mad young people there, but then i realized that i, too, had been in high school once, and that i, too, had gone to shows. so it made sense. the singer from the reformation was late, so there was a loooong break. i spotted the enigma and i immediately kinda freaked out, bc i was like "he has to have noticed me, and he's avoiding me.." and it was like UGH until i finally said to mike "im just gonna go over there" and i did. i tapped him on the shoulder and i was like "hey.." and he was like "hey!" and he hugged me and i guess i kinda looked like scared or something.. when he was hugging me i was kinda being standoffish, bc first of all, there was a girl standing beside him and i was like "oh no..." (she turned out to be dans girl and was no longer a threat, but i didnt know that at the time..), plus i was feeling awkward since i hadnt heard from him at all that week.. but he like started talking to me at a mile a minute, about how he'd been sick all week, and he stayed home from work a couple of days. and then he asked me why i wasn't smiling.. and i was like "uh.. yah, im alright." i wasn't smiling bc i was like freaking out inside, wondering if he'd been ignoring me.. and i guess he noticed that i kept looking away or through him, rather than at him, and he was like "are you ok?" and i said i was.. so he told me about the tour he's booking for april, and then he started telling me about a tour they had gone on, when a bunch of shows were cancelled, but they didnt know till they got there, and how a waitress had given them all free soup and salad, and i wasn't really paying too much attention bc i was still a mess inside. i was thinking that maybe he was talking so much bc he felt guilty, you know, like nervous conversation? so i asked him why he was so full of energy and he was like "i dont know, ive been sick and in a bad mood all week and now im in a really good mood." i dunno, so he babbled a bit more, and then i was like "so, um, did you get ANY of the messages i sent you this week?" and he said he had, and that he had responded to all of them. i told him i hadnt gotten any of the responses he sent, and i showed him on my phone that the last message i had was from bart earlier in the week. i told him that the last message i'd gotten from him was the one about all the random messages he was getting from me, and he was like "i sent you a few that day, i typed 'are you drunk?' bc i thought you must have been drunk, or maybe we had made plans and i forgot" and i was like "nope, didnt get it" and he told me that he had responded to my message that asked if he was mad at me, he said that he had written that that was silly, since he had no reason to be mad.. and i was like "seriously, if you had sent me multiple messages over a course of two weeks, and you hadnt heard anything from me back, you might wonder.." and he agreed. so that was that. then he told me that he'd also sent me messages while he was home sick, bc he saw the commercial for bring it on 2, which we have big jokes about. then that turned into talking about the movies we've watched, and we were standing within earshot of the mysery girl, so i was like "hmm, maybe not the girl.." bc he was like "yah, i dont really remember any of the movies that we watched" and he made air quotes when he said "watched." so yah. then i felt bad bc i was neglecting mike, so i said i was gonna go over to my friend, and i mentioned that i would be home monday and tuesday, and he was like "yah, we usually practice on mondays, but tuesday should be good. i think we're trying to go to hooters.. i dont know why, they are obsessed with that place, and its like no big deal, i dont really care" like he was trying to justify his potential journey to hooters.. but anyway he was like "if we go that shouldnt take all night, so i'll be in touch." and we hugged, and it was a good hug that time bc i wasnt feeling all weird.. so i went and found mike, we watched the reformation (there was this girl in the pit and she was SKANKING i was like "what?!" wrong genre of music, honey).. then his band played, and the kids were pretty psyched, i didnt know they had such a fanbase.. kids were trying to get on the mic and jumping all over each other, and i was reminded of my days of being up front and jumping on peoples backs to get to the mic at stillsuit shows.. sigh. anyway. then on the might of princes played, and i swear they did more talking than playing, and they didn't play "only if she doesnt smoke" which upset me. it ended at like 11, and i looked around for the enigma, and i saw him, and i went over and told him we were leaving, and i hugged him and i was like "you did good" and he was like "i messed up a bunch" and i said "i didnt notice" and he said "everyone says that." so we stood there and i was like.. im starving to kiss you (see above quote) but of course i couldnt bc i am his secret.. i hugged him again and kissed him on the cheek. so we left, and mike and i got some coffee and listened to some music. we got back to his house, and i sent the enigma a message: "hey it was good to see you, hope you have a good night, hugs" and he replied "it was REALLY good to see you. get home safe, hugs" and i was like "awww.. you said REALLY!!!" anyway, so we listened to some more music, talked a whole bunch about our friends and all kinds of things, then we smoked and talked some more. then it was 4am. and we were like what shall we do about getting gille home? so we decided that he would drive me home then, and crash here bc he wasnt gonna make it both ways, but he thought it would be wisest for me to already be in brooklyn, since i had work at noon. so back into the car we went, we contrasted the old "hands down" with the new one, bc i like the old one better and he likes the new one. i think i won, i had good arguments. like in the end.. in my version hes all passionate "and you kissed me like you meant it" but in the new one, hes like "and you kissed. me. like. you. meant itttt" you know. all separate words. not as breathy, more yelling like. so whatever, we finally got here at like 530, came in and crashed. it was funny bc mike is as blind as me without contacts, and he was sleeping in my room bc candace gets up early and i didnt want it to be a problem like if she got up at 7 and was like wanting to watch tv or something.. anyway, so we were in bed and i was irritated by the blanket under me, so we took it off the bed and it generated soo much static electricity.. but we're both blind so it looked like a little light show. finally went to sleep at like 6, got up at 1030. went to work today, made $125 (woohoo, my sales were only $713, so i walked with like 15%!), and now here i am. i just talked to my mom bc she's going to new orleans tomorrow, and im drinking a cherry coke. i should eat something, im starving. STARVING. i just sent kim a message saying that i forgot my sweater at work, and could she rescue it.. and im still worried that im not getting my messages, but yah. i dont understand why i didnt get them. but i believe him, bc first of all, kim sent me messages i never got, and then also, when he was saying he sent me messages, he seemed genuinely bummed that i didnt get the ones asking if i was drunk or the one about bring it on 2.. so yah, who knows what the hell is up with sprint. stupid motherfuckers. anyway, so i guess i will eat some food and watch some tv. oh and kim and i made a date to like talk about things on monday, get some food. everything between us is normal, like we talked a bunch today while we were at work together, and we have the same conversations, its just this unresolved tension thing due to the big secret. ok. im starving.. maybe more later? who knows.
so.. i went to the show last night. i had a really good day yesterday, lets start with that, shall we? well, i woke up at 1, and i was surprisingly ready to go. i didnt hit snooze or anything i was like "up and at 'em!" so i got up and i showered, collected a bunch of my cds, and i was off to jamaica for the LIRR. missed my train by 5 minutes (grr) but i got one in like 20 mins, and i met up with my friend mike in mineola. we went to his house and got the directions to the show, then we went to this little italian restaurant in glen cove. i had fettucine alfredo, which i got on my shirt, of course. it wasnt the best fettucine i'd ever had, but it was pretty good. the bread was phenomenal, it had bits of sundried tomatoes baked into the top. i dipped it in olive oil and parmesan cheese. mm... so then we set off for wading river and it was an easy ride, no traffic, good music. we got there and the john stamos project was going on, so we were like "yah, lets go smoke a cigarette" cos neither of us were feeling them. there were mad young people there, but then i realized that i, too, had been in high school once, and that i, too, had gone to shows. so it made sense. the singer from the reformation was late, so there was a loooong break. i spotted the enigma and i immediately kinda freaked out, bc i was like "he has to have noticed me, and he's avoiding me.." and it was like UGH until i finally said to mike "im just gonna go over there" and i did. i tapped him on the shoulder and i was like "hey.." and he was like "hey!" and he hugged me and i guess i kinda looked like scared or something.. when he was hugging me i was kinda being standoffish, bc first of all, there was a girl standing beside him and i was like "oh no..." (she turned out to be dans girl and was no longer a threat, but i didnt know that at the time..), plus i was feeling awkward since i hadnt heard from him at all that week.. but he like started talking to me at a mile a minute, about how he'd been sick all week, and he stayed home from work a couple of days. and then he asked me why i wasn't smiling.. and i was like "uh.. yah, im alright." i wasn't smiling bc i was like freaking out inside, wondering if he'd been ignoring me.. and i guess he noticed that i kept looking away or through him, rather than at him, and he was like "are you ok?" and i said i was.. so he told me about the tour he's booking for april, and then he started telling me about a tour they had gone on, when a bunch of shows were cancelled, but they didnt know till they got there, and how a waitress had given them all free soup and salad, and i wasn't really paying too much attention bc i was still a mess inside. i was thinking that maybe he was talking so much bc he felt guilty, you know, like nervous conversation? so i asked him why he was so full of energy and he was like "i dont know, ive been sick and in a bad mood all week and now im in a really good mood." i dunno, so he babbled a bit more, and then i was like "so, um, did you get ANY of the messages i sent you this week?" and he said he had, and that he had responded to all of them. i told him i hadnt gotten any of the responses he sent, and i showed him on my phone that the last message i had was from bart earlier in the week. i told him that the last message i'd gotten from him was the one about all the random messages he was getting from me, and he was like "i sent you a few that day, i typed 'are you drunk?' bc i thought you must have been drunk, or maybe we had made plans and i forgot" and i was like "nope, didnt get it" and he told me that he had responded to my message that asked if he was mad at me, he said that he had written that that was silly, since he had no reason to be mad.. and i was like "seriously, if you had sent me multiple messages over a course of two weeks, and you hadnt heard anything from me back, you might wonder.." and he agreed. so that was that. then he told me that he'd also sent me messages while he was home sick, bc he saw the commercial for bring it on 2, which we have big jokes about. then that turned into talking about the movies we've watched, and we were standing within earshot of the mysery girl, so i was like "hmm, maybe not the girl.." bc he was like "yah, i dont really remember any of the movies that we watched" and he made air quotes when he said "watched." so yah. then i felt bad bc i was neglecting mike, so i said i was gonna go over to my friend, and i mentioned that i would be home monday and tuesday, and he was like "yah, we usually practice on mondays, but tuesday should be good. i think we're trying to go to hooters.. i dont know why, they are obsessed with that place, and its like no big deal, i dont really care" like he was trying to justify his potential journey to hooters.. but anyway he was like "if we go that shouldnt take all night, so i'll be in touch." and we hugged, and it was a good hug that time bc i wasnt feeling all weird.. so i went and found mike, we watched the reformation (there was this girl in the pit and she was SKANKING i was like "what?!" wrong genre of music, honey).. then his band played, and the kids were pretty psyched, i didnt know they had such a fanbase.. kids were trying to get on the mic and jumping all over each other, and i was reminded of my days of being up front and jumping on peoples backs to get to the mic at stillsuit shows.. sigh. anyway. then on the might of princes played, and i swear they did more talking than playing, and they didn't play "only if she doesnt smoke" which upset me. it ended at like 11, and i looked around for the enigma, and i saw him, and i went over and told him we were leaving, and i hugged him and i was like "you did good" and he was like "i messed up a bunch" and i said "i didnt notice" and he said "everyone says that." so we stood there and i was like.. im starving to kiss you (see above quote) but of course i couldnt bc i am his secret.. i hugged him again and kissed him on the cheek. so we left, and mike and i got some coffee and listened to some music. we got back to his house, and i sent the enigma a message: "hey it was good to see you, hope you have a good night, hugs" and he replied "it was REALLY good to see you. get home safe, hugs" and i was like "awww.. you said REALLY!!!" anyway, so we listened to some more music, talked a whole bunch about our friends and all kinds of things, then we smoked and talked some more. then it was 4am. and we were like what shall we do about getting gille home? so we decided that he would drive me home then, and crash here bc he wasnt gonna make it both ways, but he thought it would be wisest for me to already be in brooklyn, since i had work at noon. so back into the car we went, we contrasted the old "hands down" with the new one, bc i like the old one better and he likes the new one. i think i won, i had good arguments. like in the end.. in my version hes all passionate "and you kissed me like you meant it" but in the new one, hes like "and you kissed. me. like. you. meant itttt" you know. all separate words. not as breathy, more yelling like. so whatever, we finally got here at like 530, came in and crashed. it was funny bc mike is as blind as me without contacts, and he was sleeping in my room bc candace gets up early and i didnt want it to be a problem like if she got up at 7 and was like wanting to watch tv or something.. anyway, so we were in bed and i was irritated by the blanket under me, so we took it off the bed and it generated soo much static electricity.. but we're both blind so it looked like a little light show. finally went to sleep at like 6, got up at 1030. went to work today, made $125 (woohoo, my sales were only $713, so i walked with like 15%!), and now here i am. i just talked to my mom bc she's going to new orleans tomorrow, and im drinking a cherry coke. i should eat something, im starving. STARVING. i just sent kim a message saying that i forgot my sweater at work, and could she rescue it.. and im still worried that im not getting my messages, but yah. i dont understand why i didnt get them. but i believe him, bc first of all, kim sent me messages i never got, and then also, when he was saying he sent me messages, he seemed genuinely bummed that i didnt get the ones asking if i was drunk or the one about bring it on 2.. so yah, who knows what the hell is up with sprint. stupid motherfuckers. anyway, so i guess i will eat some food and watch some tv. oh and kim and i made a date to like talk about things on monday, get some food. everything between us is normal, like we talked a bunch today while we were at work together, and we have the same conversations, its just this unresolved tension thing due to the big secret. ok. im starving.. maybe more later? who knows.
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