is it too late to heal?

i cant remember how many times i've blogged today, or what i said, really. i havent been sober since i woke up at 3:15.. i've eaten and eaten and eaten. i had some minestrone. the soup upset me, they like changed the recipe or something and have omitted the lima beans and white beans. grr. i had some crackers, some gushers. made myself an egg sandwich before, and i just finished eating some pudding. im like "its cold, must stuff face."

so i dont know, im watching er. im still debating whether or not i should go to that show tomorrow... i want to!!! but i have yet to hear from the kim on if she is coming with me, and i also havent heard from my brother. well, i am IMing with him right now, so maybe i'll figure some stuff out.

i feel so full. i need to stop eating so much. must maintain girlish figure. dont want to gain weight, like being small..