is it too late to heal?

its almost 2. i just woke up from a message.. and guess what? it was four messages.. and they were all from him, and they were all from monday night.. saying "i just got out of practice, we can watch bring it on.. again.. hehe" then "its sorta late, so i guess ill see you tomorrow hopefully xoxo" then "goodnight... sweet dreams..." but they were all dated today, when they came through.. but they were like one right after the other, like he said happened last week with messages from me.. and now im all sad, bc i wanted to call him monday night, just to make sure bc of last weeks message drama.. but i didnt bc im a pussy. and now im sorry. im like freaking out bc i dont think im getting his messages at all. maybe there are more that will come through later or tomorrow, maybe its a delay, a three day delay? what the hell. why does our relationship revolve around text messages? and why is my phone so fucking unreliable? i just sent him messages saying i was so mad that they didnt come through, and was he free at all this weekend.. but who knows if ill get any responses? i havent in three days. maybe tomorrow a bunch will come through from tuesday, maybe he tried to see me tuesday also. why didnt he just call? that would have been the way to reach me.. esp since i sent him a message on monday that said "if you dont get any response from me, call me.." UGH UGH UGH. im not gonna be able to stop thinking about this. i just wanna be able to get my text messages when they are sent and be happy. i just wanna see him! thats all, is that so much to ask for? apparently it is. and i still havent gotten any response from what i just sent, so who knows. i am calling him tonight. thats it. im just gonna call and suck it up, and be like "hey, are you free this weekend?" bc this waiting to hear from him in messages is retarded. especially since sprint HATES ME. this is awful. i was so upset tuesday night, bc i really had hoped he would come through, and i let myself down getting my hopes up.. and all the while, he had tried to see me. fuckin... AHHH. i dont know what else to do right now. i dont know why my phone does this. i want to get a different one, but my brother has the contract until 6/05, which is WAY LONG. at least with at&t i got my fucking messages. i might not have been able to talk on the phone, but i got my messages. i have to stop obsessing over this shit right now. i have to shower or something.