is it too late to heal?

my knees hurt. im starting to feel old. its weird, bc in my minds eye, im still 17. but then i think about 17 year old girls, and 20 year old boys and im like wow.. i was like remembering when i thought 20 was the perfect age for a boy, and now i think about 20 year old boys and im like.. sooo young. but then i dont know any boys who are 20 right now. i think jesse is 19. but he doesnt act young. maybe this is just my distorted thinking.

im way bored. thinking about picking up my guitar. im watching jeopardy!, but im not into it. its hard. candace forgot her phone here. i looked for it, and i could feel it vibrating the floor, but i think she is calling it bc she cant find it, and i cant find it, and so it keeps ringing and ringing. i feel like i should make another attempt to find it and belay her fears that she might have lost it on the train. i wonder if im being a bad friend. i called her phone and left a voicemail saying it was here, but i dunno if shes even ckecking it. a lot of people i know dont know their voicemail passwords bc its saved on their phone.. anyway, i found it, it was on her bookshelf, and mark called. so all is not lost.

i so have nothing to say right now....