is it too late to heal?

obble. i just finished the crossword puzzle. now im like.. whatever shall i do? i could watch tv. too late to play guitar. babble in journal! YAY! so.. tonight. ok, i worked. blah blah it sucked. i had SIX tables the whole time, my sales were $163. isn't that pathetic? yes. but i made $26, which is a good percentage. kim and i did mad libs with people. we made gregg (manager) do one. he had to give us a noun, and he was like "us" and i was like, "no." then he said "those" and i was like "um, gregg. NOUN. not PROnoun. person, place or thing. thaaaanks." but he got it after a while. i had to explain an adverb to him. i was like.. um, yah.. managers dont have to be smart, do they? no. it was good times. i messaged with the enigma all night, which was fun (more later). then kim and i went to the westway. we shared mozzerella sticks, and then we had grilled cheddars. i was checking my voicemail when the waiter came over, and i looked at kim and she was like "she'll have a coffee and a coke no ice, then we'll have two grilled cheddars." it was funny. we get the same thing every time, we dont even have to consult. but then she said she didnt feel like mashed potatoes, so we decided on the mozz sticks, and i was like "and sour cream, and hot sauce." ahaha. you would have to be us to get it, but seriously we have the same thing all the time, down to the same condiments. after that, we went to the film centre cafe for melanies going away party. i had a milk shake and kim had hot chocolate. everyone else was drinking. we hung out for a while, i talked to melanie's boyfriend a lot. he was quite the gabber. then we came back. now im here.

the enigma.. yah. so he sent me a message this afternoon saying that he was going upstate with the fam this weekend, so he cant hang out. but he said we would hang out soon bc he had to watch some movies. and that he was now working till 9pm, so i asked him if he got to go in later..
him: well i came in today at nine.. so 12 hr days
me: that sucks, you should revolt. are fixing things being all sexy like?
him: well im not fixing stuff but im setting up machines.. my hands are all dirty if that matters. are you all sexy at work wearing a short skirt and stuff?
me: actually, short skirts are only allowed on halloween. however, my shirt is quite tight. dirty hands are good. im kinda dirty. mm food. can you fix stuff for me?
him: sure i can fix stuff for you. what do you need me to work on? anything in particular?
me: yah, im broken, fix me. or i could just break stuff for you to fix. that would be ok.
him: why do you think its so sexy? am i like fixing ron jeremys cock or yr vibrator.. or something else that gets you all hot? hehe.
me: no, just boys working with their hands is way hot. all working hard. soooo hot. soooooo hot.
him: oh ok... so its not just me.. its anyone. that makes sense. im going home now. i cant wait to take a shower. what time are you working?
me: im leaving now too, woohoo. nah i like it when you fix things. cos yr hot.
him: cool. be safe getting home. i need to sleep. i cant wait to get in bed. when are you free next week? maybe ill come out. are you gonna be on li at all?
me: im tired too. im free mon and tues. you should come get hugs and watch a movie. i dont have plans to go to li. it could be arranged. if you wanted me to.
him: mon ill be going to see maiden so thats no good and tue is practice since wed is against me and none more black. damn. we'll hang out soon.
me: yr so funny.. bc yr not even free next week. i'll see what my schedule is thursday on over the weekend, and i'll let you know.

bizarre boy. maybe ill have a free day over the weekend. he's probably playing though.. hes like *always* playing. i dont really mind waiting to see him, bc it makes it sooo much better when i miss him and i finally see him and we just hug and cuddle for hours. it makes it all worth it. though i do wish i was seeing him soon.. i could use some hugging. mmm.. he is the best hugger ever. i was talking to emily (brothers girlfriend) about the whole thing, and she was like "sleep with someone else" and i was like.. "yah, that didnt work.. you know when a boy puts his arms around you, and you just melt? yah. that." and she made fun of me, but she was like "yah, yr right," and cast a look at my brother. then she hit him. she was like "i didnt even like you." it was funny. but she knew i was right, bc its all in the hug. and his hugs are warm and cozy and safe and enveloping. and i know when it happens that i want it forever. *sigh*

my contacts are way blurry right now. my knees hurt from sitting indian style. its really cold in here. i say the same things every night....