Thursday, January 29, 2004
so here i am again. im just watching blind date, the worst dating show ever. i made some cup o' noodles. im pretty bored. i did two crossword puzzles... i didnt do yesterdays, so i had two today. woohoo, but now they are gone. so sad. i suppose the enigma didnt make it out to see against me! tonight, either, bc he didnt stop by and give me a hug. i think that i will stop hoping to see him. whatever, he can let me know when he's free. for the time being, i will consign myself to being used to no hugs. i got a bunch of good bart hugs at work tonight, though, which was key.
blah blah blah blah blah. i have so much to say, but i dont have the words to express anything. its just... i dont know. see. right now is a time where i really need to speak in sounds. kim would get it. i just feel like obbledeblabertobeek. you know? i definitely feel like there is nothing significant to say. i wish there was. i wanna babble about the boy, but i havent anything to report. it seemed like he was anxious to see me when we spoke last week, but like.. hes soo busy and im like.. blah blah blah blah blah. im just gonna stop mid sentance and blah bc thats what i feel like doing.
i feel so repetitive. im obsessed with enigma hugs. probably because they are THE BEST HUGS EVER.
i also read the entirety of my blog the other day. and i laughed at myself. all the times i "walked away" from you.. all the times i "finally realized" hahah. as if i would ever walk away or fully realize anything. i make up my mind and then i melt. i dont know what it is about this boy. i have never been so hooked on anyone. i was thinking that i'll probably only see him like three more times before i move back to long island. i wonder if things will change when i get there, though. like if he'll pop in to watch a movie more often.. we'll have to get up at the same time in the morning. actually, i'll probably have to get up first, cos im gonna be a teacher. why do i even do this? build up these hopes about what will happen when i move. you know whats gonna happen? i do. nothing. i'll still see him almost never, though *maybe* a little bit more frequently, especially if i live in the same area as he does or my parents do. but it wont make anything different. maybe i'll meet someone else. imagine?
anyway. ex-treme dating is on. imma go smoke..
blah blah blah blah blah. i have so much to say, but i dont have the words to express anything. its just... i dont know. see. right now is a time where i really need to speak in sounds. kim would get it. i just feel like obbledeblabertobeek. you know? i definitely feel like there is nothing significant to say. i wish there was. i wanna babble about the boy, but i havent anything to report. it seemed like he was anxious to see me when we spoke last week, but like.. hes soo busy and im like.. blah blah blah blah blah. im just gonna stop mid sentance and blah bc thats what i feel like doing.
i feel so repetitive. im obsessed with enigma hugs. probably because they are THE BEST HUGS EVER.
i also read the entirety of my blog the other day. and i laughed at myself. all the times i "walked away" from you.. all the times i "finally realized" hahah. as if i would ever walk away or fully realize anything. i make up my mind and then i melt. i dont know what it is about this boy. i have never been so hooked on anyone. i was thinking that i'll probably only see him like three more times before i move back to long island. i wonder if things will change when i get there, though. like if he'll pop in to watch a movie more often.. we'll have to get up at the same time in the morning. actually, i'll probably have to get up first, cos im gonna be a teacher. why do i even do this? build up these hopes about what will happen when i move. you know whats gonna happen? i do. nothing. i'll still see him almost never, though *maybe* a little bit more frequently, especially if i live in the same area as he does or my parents do. but it wont make anything different. maybe i'll meet someone else. imagine?
anyway. ex-treme dating is on. imma go smoke..
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