is it too late to heal?

soo cold. also sooo not tired. this will become a problem shortly. i would like to go to bed, since i have to get up at 11, but i think i slept too late. i didnt get up till 2. its been too cold to get up, and besides, im not thrilled at the prospect of looking at books.. im so not cut out to be a scholar. this is not the life for me. i just wanna settle into a life. thats all, i dont want to constantly learn, or anything like that. i thought i did. and maybe i'll miss school when its gone, but right now.. i cant wait for it to end. i thought i would worry when i was getting close to the end.. i thought i would be afraid that without school, i wouldnt know what to do with myself. but now im like.. i could just teach high school history.. teach something i love, and have that be school AND work. and then miraculously have time for myself.. free time! whatever will i do with free time??? i know what i'll do, i'll read books, and see bands, and play with my kitty, and see my friends, and go to the diner, and play video games, and listen to music, and maybe, just maybe, i'll fall in love.