Monday, January 19, 2004
watching queer as folk. candace's friend michelle got the complete second season on dvd, so we're borrowing it, only candace cheated and watched the whole first disc without me. so now im trying to catch up. i have to get up early for therapy, though, and im like.. watch or sleep, watch or sleep.. watch won for now. i love emmett. i also love brian. mmm.. i love emmett bc he is hilarious, i love brian bc he is the hottest man i've come across in a longggg time. he might even rival josh hartnett. im not even sure who is hotter. see, brian also has the emotionally detached thing going on, which makes him 9,000 times more attractive. we all know how i loooooooove those emotionally detached boys. he'd make a fabulous musician. ah, the way i fall in love with characters.. sigh.
so yah. i guess im bored. i mean. im not, cos im waaaaay drawn into queer as folk. but i dont know, i need some excitement that goes deeper than the television. i need hugs and cuddles, which is also a problem bc im trying not to get my hopes up, remember? i know him better than to expect him to come through tomorrow.. he'll be tired, he won't want to sleep at my house bc he will be "afraid he won't be able to get up in the morning" bc thats always the reason. last time, when we were on LI and i wanted him to spend the night, but he was all like.. no, i wont be able to go to work, i'll wanna stay in bed with you.. even though i always make sure he gets up, and its probably pretty equidistant from my house to his job as from his house to his job. and my mom will be out of town. so stupid, bc she obviously cant object to him spending the night when my brothers girlfriend lives in the house. but then, he's not my boyfriend, and she doesn't particularly like the way he plays these games. sigh. just remember to breathe, remember not to fall in love with the eyes and the smile and the hands and the.... yah, here i go again.. falling in love. maybe someday i'll either get what i want, or i'll give up. i'd put my money on the latter, but i'll probably never give up hope.
so yah. i guess im bored. i mean. im not, cos im waaaaay drawn into queer as folk. but i dont know, i need some excitement that goes deeper than the television. i need hugs and cuddles, which is also a problem bc im trying not to get my hopes up, remember? i know him better than to expect him to come through tomorrow.. he'll be tired, he won't want to sleep at my house bc he will be "afraid he won't be able to get up in the morning" bc thats always the reason. last time, when we were on LI and i wanted him to spend the night, but he was all like.. no, i wont be able to go to work, i'll wanna stay in bed with you.. even though i always make sure he gets up, and its probably pretty equidistant from my house to his job as from his house to his job. and my mom will be out of town. so stupid, bc she obviously cant object to him spending the night when my brothers girlfriend lives in the house. but then, he's not my boyfriend, and she doesn't particularly like the way he plays these games. sigh. just remember to breathe, remember not to fall in love with the eyes and the smile and the hands and the.... yah, here i go again.. falling in love. maybe someday i'll either get what i want, or i'll give up. i'd put my money on the latter, but i'll probably never give up hope.
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