is it too late to heal?

*and you hold me... like you'll never let me go*

*i miss you i miss you i miss you
i miss you i miss you i miss you so much
but how how many times can i walk away and wish "if only..."
but how many times can i talk this way and wish "if only..."
keep on making the same mistake
keep on aching the same heartbreak
i wish "if only..."
but "if only...."
is a wish too late...*
the cure.

i cannot explain how many times i thought about you today, how many times you crept into my mind and crawled up into a little ball, sitting firmly in the front of my brain. i tried not to, i did. i tried to distract myself.. for the first hour and i half i was awake, i resisted sending you a message. but 1130 came and i had nothing to do, i was just standing in the side station at work and bam. "cant stop thinking about thursday..." and i didnt expect you to respond, bc its saturday and i rarely hear from you on weekends. but an hour later there you are, saying "yea. the movie was really good huh? and the red head was hot, right? hehe. really. the night just felt so good." and im like I KNOW!! has it clicked in yr head yet? you.belong.with.me. you know, from chasing amy. i keep thinking of when i can see you again, i keep imagining little scenarios, where you call me to see me right now, or where you want to see me saturday.. and reasons for me to have to go to LI so i can hopefully see you there. seriously. i need to stop thinking. i think thats the only way ill stop thinking about you, if i stop thinking all together..