is it too late to heal?

*the bottle is waiting, the cap is twisted, ready to be used, and so are you*
dashboard

miserable. again. you know. trying to exist without thinking of you makes me feel like im drowning. i draw all of these parallels, and think about how long this has been going on, how long i have been under yr spell. and you frustrate me. because i wonder if you would even care if you knew how badly you destroy me every single day. with yr fucking games, needing a backup plan all the time. and then you run and hide, its like you know you've upset me and you back off to keep me hooked in. you suck. seriously.

*you came to me like a dream, the kind that always leaves. just as the best part starts, it ends so abruptly. and leaves you stunned and naked in your bedroom all alone. it’s kinda funny how something so soothing gets interrupted by the ring of a telephone. and you broke me like the cigarette that i busted on the day i quit. but now that ive been drinking, im outta smokes and i wish that i had it. woke up to my daily headache and the realization that you are gone. oh my sweet darling happiness you've been away from me all along. one thing that ive never said, im truly happy in my heart and in my head. a lonely liver suspended in liquid.
its one thing that i never did was smile. missing a case, lacking a lid. my heart bleeds for what you never did...
you never did.*
alkaline trio

i think im back on suicide watch.............................

*cos yr gone, i get nothing and you're off with barely a sigh. i never said "goodbye"*
dashboard

i looked at old stabbing westward cds before. i was wrong about my song from yesterday. the lyrics about haunting reality are from "lies" which was on ungod.. and "once i swore i would die for you but i never meant like this" is from "shame," which is on whither... so yah.

nyquil take ma away to a place where i dont feel.

maybe i'll die in my sleep.