is it too late to heal?

i cant go to bed. what the hell is wrong with me? there is this kid i talk to on okcupid every night.. hes the night time hotel guy or something. doorman, perhaps? but so hes working all night, and im of course not sleeping.. and i sit here and babble with him. this is getting out of control though. seriously. today i didnt get up till 330. 330!!! i feel like its the summer after my freshman year of college all over again. and i have to STOP. i think im going to not nap on tuesday, and instead go to LI after therapy.. that way i can sit at a desk and not be distracted by my guitar or the tv or any other thing that might distract me here. plus i *have to* be sober there.. i cant just retreat into my room and do the drugs. plus im out! im gonna try and get some tomorrow night though. cos i NEEEEED it.

anyway. ill try to sleep now. wish me luck....