Sunday, March 21, 2004
*im so excited.. im about to lose control and i think i like it*
ahahaha. im soooooo excited about VEGAS! oh man, sin city.. imma get another tattoo, and drink till i cant breathe. ok maybe not that much. but im going to drink a lot, and be tipsy the whole time. the WHOLE time! non stop. in heels and a mini skirt. kim and i discussed it at the diner tonight. we are not allowed to bring any of our regular clothes. only things we wouldnt wear in our usual lives. purchase some shoes, heels! itll be hilarious. stumbling around in shoes we dont know how to wear. i was thinking i would maybe go to the steve madden outlet and maybe to target. jane had some isaac mizrahi for target shoes in one of their issues. they probably dont have them anymore, but its worth a look. i want some hot shoes. i was thinking i could go knee highs one day, but then i thought about it and i was like NAH, its VEGAS! its gonna be hot, no knee highs necessary. i shall party like a rockstar, and act like a rockstar. we've decided on sparkley make up, as well. the kim still hasnt really given me a definite answer, but she was talking like its for sure tonight.
speaking of, i went to the diner with kim tonight, and it was a really good time. first of all, i got her these underwear, like little boys underwear, the kind with cartoons on the butt? but on the front they had a chicken and on the back it said "sunny side up".. cos kim is obsessed with chickens. she has one tattooed on her ass. but she was like "gille, yr underwear rock!" and she was like dancing on her side of the booth, like "they're so soft! and gonzo hated them but i said 'i dont care! they rock!'" ahahaha... but yah so it was one of our sessions, where we eat our food and then sit there and gripe and realize that we are in fact the exact same. we have the same complexes. but then, we knew that the minute we spoke.. we were oddly drawn to each other. we were talking about how we're the twins.. and like, last week she sent me a txt asking me what my scent was, and i was kidding in the side station like "dude, she wants to be me! she cant have my smell!" and i *knew* it would get totally blown out of proportion and turned into drama and IT DID. (though she knew it was all a ploy as soon as people started reporting back to her).. so we were scheming on the E train to queens.. we were saying we should have a faux blow out at work the day before we go to vegas, like throw chips at each other or something and act like we hate each other. that way, they'll have 4 days to really gossip it up before we get back, and it should be page six by our return. we decided we would tell only derek, as he'll be going to vegas with us, and besides, he would so go along with it. we also think we could get him to go along with our fake identities in vegas. its going to be so much fun. but yah. we also decided that before we go, we have to get together for one of our therapy sessions and get it all out so we can just be retarded and happy while we're gone. and i felt really good, bc we were on the train, and she was talking about how a few weeks ago i was all jokingly saying "we arent gonna be friends anymore, we cant hang out bc you get all the boys and i want them, and yr bruising my ego, so i have to go solo" and tonight she was like "i was so sad when you said that even though i knew you were kidding bc i was like 'nooo what would i do?'" so i felt really important, and like i matter to someone for the first time in a long time. not that i ever doubt our friendship, but you never know. i mean, i never doubted my friendship with tom or jan or even sherine, who i havent spoken to since 9th grade.. but they found it easy to up and walk out of my life, so why wouldnt kim? oh yah, bc shes a true friend, and i really believe that she will join the ranks of katie and antonia, and always always be a part of my life, no matter how small. but yah i guess the point was just that it made me feel so special and cared about and i guess i really needed that right now.. cos getting over the enigma is harder than i planned, and every day i want to scream and make him love me...... but kim will do. shes way radder than him anyway.
GETTIN OUT OF NY!! YAH!! and yr not! yr stuck here! yay! i dont know who im addressing. but YOU. hahahahaa.. my spring break will be spent in the sun being drunk! well. actually my spring break was last week, but who cares i aint got classes this semester! now i *really* have to finish my thesis by the end of the week! AAH! pressure!
anyway. i think ill sleep. its past my bedtime. ha, imagine. no. but im tired, i worked all day today and now im like zzzzzz... so yah. sooo hyper though! ah! AH! ok. sweet dreams world! xoxoxoxo!!!
ahahaha. im soooooo excited about VEGAS! oh man, sin city.. imma get another tattoo, and drink till i cant breathe. ok maybe not that much. but im going to drink a lot, and be tipsy the whole time. the WHOLE time! non stop. in heels and a mini skirt. kim and i discussed it at the diner tonight. we are not allowed to bring any of our regular clothes. only things we wouldnt wear in our usual lives. purchase some shoes, heels! itll be hilarious. stumbling around in shoes we dont know how to wear. i was thinking i would maybe go to the steve madden outlet and maybe to target. jane had some isaac mizrahi for target shoes in one of their issues. they probably dont have them anymore, but its worth a look. i want some hot shoes. i was thinking i could go knee highs one day, but then i thought about it and i was like NAH, its VEGAS! its gonna be hot, no knee highs necessary. i shall party like a rockstar, and act like a rockstar. we've decided on sparkley make up, as well. the kim still hasnt really given me a definite answer, but she was talking like its for sure tonight.
speaking of, i went to the diner with kim tonight, and it was a really good time. first of all, i got her these underwear, like little boys underwear, the kind with cartoons on the butt? but on the front they had a chicken and on the back it said "sunny side up".. cos kim is obsessed with chickens. she has one tattooed on her ass. but she was like "gille, yr underwear rock!" and she was like dancing on her side of the booth, like "they're so soft! and gonzo hated them but i said 'i dont care! they rock!'" ahahaha... but yah so it was one of our sessions, where we eat our food and then sit there and gripe and realize that we are in fact the exact same. we have the same complexes. but then, we knew that the minute we spoke.. we were oddly drawn to each other. we were talking about how we're the twins.. and like, last week she sent me a txt asking me what my scent was, and i was kidding in the side station like "dude, she wants to be me! she cant have my smell!" and i *knew* it would get totally blown out of proportion and turned into drama and IT DID. (though she knew it was all a ploy as soon as people started reporting back to her).. so we were scheming on the E train to queens.. we were saying we should have a faux blow out at work the day before we go to vegas, like throw chips at each other or something and act like we hate each other. that way, they'll have 4 days to really gossip it up before we get back, and it should be page six by our return. we decided we would tell only derek, as he'll be going to vegas with us, and besides, he would so go along with it. we also think we could get him to go along with our fake identities in vegas. its going to be so much fun. but yah. we also decided that before we go, we have to get together for one of our therapy sessions and get it all out so we can just be retarded and happy while we're gone. and i felt really good, bc we were on the train, and she was talking about how a few weeks ago i was all jokingly saying "we arent gonna be friends anymore, we cant hang out bc you get all the boys and i want them, and yr bruising my ego, so i have to go solo" and tonight she was like "i was so sad when you said that even though i knew you were kidding bc i was like 'nooo what would i do?'" so i felt really important, and like i matter to someone for the first time in a long time. not that i ever doubt our friendship, but you never know. i mean, i never doubted my friendship with tom or jan or even sherine, who i havent spoken to since 9th grade.. but they found it easy to up and walk out of my life, so why wouldnt kim? oh yah, bc shes a true friend, and i really believe that she will join the ranks of katie and antonia, and always always be a part of my life, no matter how small. but yah i guess the point was just that it made me feel so special and cared about and i guess i really needed that right now.. cos getting over the enigma is harder than i planned, and every day i want to scream and make him love me...... but kim will do. shes way radder than him anyway.
GETTIN OUT OF NY!! YAH!! and yr not! yr stuck here! yay! i dont know who im addressing. but YOU. hahahahaa.. my spring break will be spent in the sun being drunk! well. actually my spring break was last week, but who cares i aint got classes this semester! now i *really* have to finish my thesis by the end of the week! AAH! pressure!
anyway. i think ill sleep. its past my bedtime. ha, imagine. no. but im tired, i worked all day today and now im like zzzzzz... so yah. sooo hyper though! ah! AH! ok. sweet dreams world! xoxoxoxo!!!
Subscribe to Comments [Atom]