is it too late to heal?

*im waiting to give you whatever the world may bring id give you my life
cause i dont own anything. it seemed like the bottom was all that i had until now. id give you my life if youd give me yours somehow.*
further seems forever

so this is what letting go coes down to? me feeling it take over, but refusing to let go. part of me is petrafied.. what will it be like to not be hung up on you? will it ever really stop? will i coalesce the next time you need to get laid, or will i be busy? and when i cave, as i probably will, are you going to be evil and make me so sad that things are only what they are? what if i move on? will you be sorry? YOU NEVER WANTED TO BE WITH ME, YOU COULD NEVER LOVE ME.. i say it over and over again, and i believe it. i truly believe it. but part of me aches to not believe it, to return to the days where i was sure that deep down you cared, but you were just too busy. the game is over though, i ran out of delusions and the deceptions have faded.....

it stinks in here. trash needs to be taken out. tomorrow...