Tuesday, March 09, 2004
*in you i see further. can it last forever?
identify your patients, xy configurations.
words are lost in your eyes. one thought inside my heart.
drop addicts in the mixture, falcons have blown the fixture.
think of me as days pass us by. shards of glass, skies of gold. steal my breath. blood runs cold. violet waves. oceans blue. all my love. lost in you. in you i see further. can it last forever?
sinkhole that we would frequent, white heels safe from extinction
words are lost in your eyes. ine thought inside my heart.
i said that i dont need you, but im a liar, i swear i do, i do
strip away vanity
(i do)
just as you consume me
(i do)
broken smile, starless sky
(i do)
save it all, say goodbye..*
from autumn to ashes
you.. you again today.. you... i dont know. you just YOU. i went to virgin megastore for a major cd purchasing extravaganza.. and i saw yr cd.. so i was like "wow!" and i sent you a message.. "im at virgin megastore and they have yr cd" and you respond: "sweet. we totally played a movielife song last night and people were singing along." so i was like "oh, the song you told me about? should i move yr cd to the virgin recommends punk section hehe"... and you say: "hell yes! thank you that rocks, you rule!" and i was like awwwwww... so whatever, im shopping and i come along this new kids on the block greatest hits cd, and i message: "oh, did you want me to pick up nkotb's greatest hits for you?" ... and so im walking down the street in the middle of times square, and you write: "i already have that, i got it through the fan club, but thanks for thinking of me, that was sweet of you hehe" and i like died laughing. i dont know why, but i just stood there in the rain amost hyserically laughing.. see, you are totally capable of brighting my day, and making sunshine in the rain.. so i get it together, and respond: "awww thats too bad, i was hoping i could make yr day!" and yr like.. "any other ideas? you already did by putting our cd in its proper place. hehe" so i wrote something like "yay i did my good deed for the day! i really want this yellow cardigan, but i dont think i have anything that goes with it.." so you said "it goes with jeans.. and bees. get it if you want it. you deserve it.. youve been good." and i was like "aww." so whatever, around 11, i thought i was gonna go to bed, so i messaged you: "goodnight pretty. thanks for a really good laugh today (the fan club thing).. hugs." and yr like "goodnight sweetness."
and so i sat here and i like hung my head in shame. im not supposed to love the words you write.. im supposed to be over it. remember? yr not supposed to captivate me and make me smile.. butttttt i havent made an effort to see you. cos i kinda am past that for now. i shouldnt have even messaged you, im supposed to be neglecting you, and not allow you to KNOW im thinking of you.. which its obvious that i am when i send you a message. WILL IT EVER END? will i ever really get over this? what if years go by and our paths cross again and we realize that now we havent wasted seven years, but fifteen, or twenty?
it wont end..
identify your patients, xy configurations.
words are lost in your eyes. one thought inside my heart.
drop addicts in the mixture, falcons have blown the fixture.
think of me as days pass us by. shards of glass, skies of gold. steal my breath. blood runs cold. violet waves. oceans blue. all my love. lost in you. in you i see further. can it last forever?
sinkhole that we would frequent, white heels safe from extinction
words are lost in your eyes. ine thought inside my heart.
i said that i dont need you, but im a liar, i swear i do, i do
strip away vanity
(i do)
just as you consume me
(i do)
broken smile, starless sky
(i do)
save it all, say goodbye..*
from autumn to ashes
you.. you again today.. you... i dont know. you just YOU. i went to virgin megastore for a major cd purchasing extravaganza.. and i saw yr cd.. so i was like "wow!" and i sent you a message.. "im at virgin megastore and they have yr cd" and you respond: "sweet. we totally played a movielife song last night and people were singing along." so i was like "oh, the song you told me about? should i move yr cd to the virgin recommends punk section hehe"... and you say: "hell yes! thank you that rocks, you rule!" and i was like awwwwww... so whatever, im shopping and i come along this new kids on the block greatest hits cd, and i message: "oh, did you want me to pick up nkotb's greatest hits for you?" ... and so im walking down the street in the middle of times square, and you write: "i already have that, i got it through the fan club, but thanks for thinking of me, that was sweet of you hehe" and i like died laughing. i dont know why, but i just stood there in the rain amost hyserically laughing.. see, you are totally capable of brighting my day, and making sunshine in the rain.. so i get it together, and respond: "awww thats too bad, i was hoping i could make yr day!" and yr like.. "any other ideas? you already did by putting our cd in its proper place. hehe" so i wrote something like "yay i did my good deed for the day! i really want this yellow cardigan, but i dont think i have anything that goes with it.." so you said "it goes with jeans.. and bees. get it if you want it. you deserve it.. youve been good." and i was like "aww." so whatever, around 11, i thought i was gonna go to bed, so i messaged you: "goodnight pretty. thanks for a really good laugh today (the fan club thing).. hugs." and yr like "goodnight sweetness."
and so i sat here and i like hung my head in shame. im not supposed to love the words you write.. im supposed to be over it. remember? yr not supposed to captivate me and make me smile.. butttttt i havent made an effort to see you. cos i kinda am past that for now. i shouldnt have even messaged you, im supposed to be neglecting you, and not allow you to KNOW im thinking of you.. which its obvious that i am when i send you a message. WILL IT EVER END? will i ever really get over this? what if years go by and our paths cross again and we realize that now we havent wasted seven years, but fifteen, or twenty?
it wont end..
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