is it too late to heal?

Survey - Yay!
-Current Hair Color: *its blackish reddish brownish hair. it works.
-Natural: *dark brown
-Left Handed: *nope.
-Number of Siblings:*just rich.
-Parents divorced:*yes
-Parent(s) gay?: *no...
-First place you lived: *farmingville, long island, ny
-Have roommates?:*yes, candace.
-Pets: *two kitties at my moms house, yoda and belly.
-Drink: *nope
-do drugs: *eh, you know.
Love and Rockets:
-Ever been in love: *sigh..
-In a relationship: *nope, i be single. boo and yay.
-Been cheated on?: *probably. id put momey on nick having cheated on me, being that he was so close with jan for the last month before we broke up and then immediately started going out with her, and shes always been sleazy like that, fucking other peoples boyfriends. but whatever. im not as bitter as that sounded.
-Cheated on someone: *once, i was 16.
-Been Engaged: *no..
-Been Married: *no..
-Done a long distance relationship: *yes. it failed.
-Did it work: *nope...
-Love someone now: *eh. i dont believe in love anymore, i dont think. its all chemical reactions and stuff. its fake.
-Someone love you: *all my friends.
-Did it with someone of the same sex: *nope.
-Kissed someone of the same sex: *nope.
-Kissed two people in the same day: *yes.
-Kissed two people at the same time: *no.
-Had sex with two seperate people at two seperate times in the same day: *busted!
-Ever had a stalker: *yes! he sucked!
-Ever stalked someone: *antonia and i used to stalk our boyfriends...
-Dated the artist: *ive dated an artist..
-Dated the rock star: *ive dated (mostly) boys in bands..
-Broken a heart: *yes.
-Had your heart broken: *god yes.
-Bad girls or the good ones: *i like boys..
-Bands/singers that reminds you of your first love: *alice in chains.. esp jar of flies.
-Band that reminds you of your most recent love: *grade.
This month have you:
-Thrown up: *no bc i gave up drinking in december..
-Played sick from work: *i never do that. i need money.
-Cried: yessss.
-Done something you regret: *no.
-Got drunk: *no.
-Cut your hair: *yes.
-Gotten a tattoo: *no.
-Been on stage: *umm.. no. not in the past month.
-Been on TV: *no.
-Dyed your hair: *no.
-Did it: *um.. yes. yes i have, but its been almost a month.
-Cuddled: *yes, but also not in almost a month
-Fell asleep not at your house: *at my mothers house.
-Gotten Stood up: *not in the past month.
-Stood someone up: *no.
-Gone out to the movies: *no. i havent been to the movies since june.
-Fallen in love: *no.
Have you ever:
-Been hit: *no
-By someone of the opposite sex: *no
-Have you ever hit someone: *yes
-Shot a gun: *no
-Dressed up for Halloween outside of childhood? *hells yes i was a slutty schoolgirl last year and i won $20 for it!
-Broken the law: *yes.
-Been arrested: *no.
-Been handcuffed: *no.
-Been scared you would die: *all the time. its my biggest fear..