is it too late to heal?

there is this crappy hipster band on carson. im so sleepy. i think im gona read some of my magazine and then sleep. you know. sleep. i have to go to rutgers tomorrow. must not be a total waste of life. i know ill want to. but jesse and i planned out vegas tonight, and its going to be so much fun, and i will not be able to have fun if i dont finish my thesis by then!! so i must push forward and make headway. and soon.

i wish you were here to hold me. i wish you could lay beside me and make me warm and cozy. but im staying away. its like in the movie singles, when janet realizes that she doesnt have to be there with cliff, she could just walk away. but then he falls in love with her. hmm.. he wouldnt fall in love with me though. he'd probably just miss the lovin. sigh. all is lost.