Wednesday, April 21, 2004
*forget me, its that simple*
taking back sunday
so. its like 820 or so, and im listening to my new kill yrself cd. i dont know if i mentioned it yesterday, but ryan has been very sad over his break up with sarah. it appears that he thinks he made the wrong decision. i dont think he did. it april, and so many relationships end in april. i dont know why. its almost like spring cleaning for feelings.. but yah, so he has been mopey and i made him a kill yrself cd playlist. and he made it into a cd for me, and then he made one himself and also burned it for me. so i have TWO new kill yrself cds, and right now "no lies, just love" by bright eyes is on. im listening to the one i made. maybe later i'll listen to his.. im not gonna know all the songs though. boo.
my throat is kinda bothering me. i am waiting for my annual sick to happen.. late april severe cold. i had one kinda recently.. so im hoping to skip this. but i had the white flecks a few weeks ago.. and i ignored them. maybe ill get scarlet fever. wouldnt that be fun?
i have to call my mom at 9. thats when my minutes start... im already 5 minutes over my daytime minutes. thats like.. $3. two more days.... if i can resist sending any text messages for the next two days i will be fine. we shall see.. so far, so good.. since i ran out of minutes on monday and i've only used five since. three of them were checking my voicemail. so there. self control is fun. i keep thinking i should up my minutes, but.. $70 for 700 minutes is ok. i dont wanna go up to like 1000.. that would be like $90 a month, and i dont need that. i wish i could get nights starting at 7! but i dont wanna extend my contract.. im already stuck with sprint until next june. like 2005 june. not two months june. im thinking about just chaging phones to get old skool text messaging back, instead of this short mail crap. when i saw the enigma last week i saw his phone and he still has SMS messaging, and his phone is nicER than mine. we shall see..
hehe candace has a blind date tomorrow.. someone from her work set her up with a good friend of theirs or something, and shes on the phone with him, and i hear her laughing and saying "im five-seven, but thats without heels" and she's all giggley like "i will be wearing a size 7 pants and ive been told that im slim." its kind of cute. it sounds like they are having a fun conversation, which is good, cos candace hasnt really been out with anyone in like a year, not since bill, who came around about the same time as the shit with the enigma started, so.. only she was able to end the shit with bill, and i am unable to end the shit with mine...
"autumn's monologue" is on. which is my theme song. *how could love be so thoughtless, so cruel.. when all, all that i did was for you*
i have to figure out the chronology of my life right now. so i shall here, since it works for me to write it out. ok. so its wednesday. and ive effectively wasted the whole day. im gonna call my mom, watch law and order and be on drugs. then tomorrow i have to do laundry and READ READ READ. riiiiight. im going to do my best. friday night im closing. then saturday im off work, so im going to get cursive tickets with ryan.. and study. sunday work in the morning, study at night.. monday im going to try to study all day, pick up my thesis.. then my orals. this is where things get complicated. ok. so im seeing cursive next week. i thought i could see them thursday. go to LI for tuesday night to maybe see joe and wednesday i could get my tattoo with emily.. thursday would be cursive, then id go back to LI friday for inside, which my bro is supposed to go to with me. but i have to be back for an 8 am server meeting sat morning. soo.. i was thinking maybe instead i should try to get tickets for wednesday to see cursive, then go to LI thursday for the tattoos, and see inside fri.. which would leave no boy time.. but then, im not guarenteed to see him if i go home tuesday, either.. so i dont knooooow. maybe ill just go twice. who cares. welli have to figure it outtttt. cos i have to deliver my thesis to rutgers by sunday...... ok ok ok. i think i will probably just end up going tuesday, coming back wed night after the tattoos or possibly thurs morning.. go to rutgers thursday to drop off the thesis before cursive.. and then go back to LI fri afternoon. and spend the night crying bc inside are SO GOOD. wait, though, we might have to see cirsive wednesday.. it depends when ryan is going to pittsburgh. ugh now its complicated.
*drivin in yr car, miss the stop sign, fall in love.. just to get knocked down* thursday
19 minutes till i can call mom. im watching 60 minutes. "after the movies" by cursive is on. *im so sorry, im so sorry, have i hurt you? i have hurt myself. these sad songs wont change anything. love as fragile as a wine glass, this could have been forever. love as fragile as a wine glass, it couldnt last forever. im so sorry. it should have been forever.*
ok im out for now.....
taking back sunday
so. its like 820 or so, and im listening to my new kill yrself cd. i dont know if i mentioned it yesterday, but ryan has been very sad over his break up with sarah. it appears that he thinks he made the wrong decision. i dont think he did. it april, and so many relationships end in april. i dont know why. its almost like spring cleaning for feelings.. but yah, so he has been mopey and i made him a kill yrself cd playlist. and he made it into a cd for me, and then he made one himself and also burned it for me. so i have TWO new kill yrself cds, and right now "no lies, just love" by bright eyes is on. im listening to the one i made. maybe later i'll listen to his.. im not gonna know all the songs though. boo.
my throat is kinda bothering me. i am waiting for my annual sick to happen.. late april severe cold. i had one kinda recently.. so im hoping to skip this. but i had the white flecks a few weeks ago.. and i ignored them. maybe ill get scarlet fever. wouldnt that be fun?
i have to call my mom at 9. thats when my minutes start... im already 5 minutes over my daytime minutes. thats like.. $3. two more days.... if i can resist sending any text messages for the next two days i will be fine. we shall see.. so far, so good.. since i ran out of minutes on monday and i've only used five since. three of them were checking my voicemail. so there. self control is fun. i keep thinking i should up my minutes, but.. $70 for 700 minutes is ok. i dont wanna go up to like 1000.. that would be like $90 a month, and i dont need that. i wish i could get nights starting at 7! but i dont wanna extend my contract.. im already stuck with sprint until next june. like 2005 june. not two months june. im thinking about just chaging phones to get old skool text messaging back, instead of this short mail crap. when i saw the enigma last week i saw his phone and he still has SMS messaging, and his phone is nicER than mine. we shall see..
hehe candace has a blind date tomorrow.. someone from her work set her up with a good friend of theirs or something, and shes on the phone with him, and i hear her laughing and saying "im five-seven, but thats without heels" and she's all giggley like "i will be wearing a size 7 pants and ive been told that im slim." its kind of cute. it sounds like they are having a fun conversation, which is good, cos candace hasnt really been out with anyone in like a year, not since bill, who came around about the same time as the shit with the enigma started, so.. only she was able to end the shit with bill, and i am unable to end the shit with mine...
"autumn's monologue" is on. which is my theme song. *how could love be so thoughtless, so cruel.. when all, all that i did was for you*
i have to figure out the chronology of my life right now. so i shall here, since it works for me to write it out. ok. so its wednesday. and ive effectively wasted the whole day. im gonna call my mom, watch law and order and be on drugs. then tomorrow i have to do laundry and READ READ READ. riiiiight. im going to do my best. friday night im closing. then saturday im off work, so im going to get cursive tickets with ryan.. and study. sunday work in the morning, study at night.. monday im going to try to study all day, pick up my thesis.. then my orals. this is where things get complicated. ok. so im seeing cursive next week. i thought i could see them thursday. go to LI for tuesday night to maybe see joe and wednesday i could get my tattoo with emily.. thursday would be cursive, then id go back to LI friday for inside, which my bro is supposed to go to with me. but i have to be back for an 8 am server meeting sat morning. soo.. i was thinking maybe instead i should try to get tickets for wednesday to see cursive, then go to LI thursday for the tattoos, and see inside fri.. which would leave no boy time.. but then, im not guarenteed to see him if i go home tuesday, either.. so i dont knooooow. maybe ill just go twice. who cares. welli have to figure it outtttt. cos i have to deliver my thesis to rutgers by sunday...... ok ok ok. i think i will probably just end up going tuesday, coming back wed night after the tattoos or possibly thurs morning.. go to rutgers thursday to drop off the thesis before cursive.. and then go back to LI fri afternoon. and spend the night crying bc inside are SO GOOD. wait, though, we might have to see cirsive wednesday.. it depends when ryan is going to pittsburgh. ugh now its complicated.
*drivin in yr car, miss the stop sign, fall in love.. just to get knocked down* thursday
19 minutes till i can call mom. im watching 60 minutes. "after the movies" by cursive is on. *im so sorry, im so sorry, have i hurt you? i have hurt myself. these sad songs wont change anything. love as fragile as a wine glass, this could have been forever. love as fragile as a wine glass, it couldnt last forever. im so sorry. it should have been forever.*
ok im out for now.....
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