Saturday, April 17, 2004
*is that what you call a getaway? tell me what you got away with, cos ive seen more spine in jellyfish, ive seen more guts in eleven year old kids.. have another drink and drive yrself home. i hope theres ice on all the roads, and you can think of me when you forget yr seatbealt and again when yr head goes through the windshield...
(and i cant let you let me down again.)*
brand new.
i have never been that angry in my whole life at another person. like ive been like "i hope you die" but i never really mean it. well, sort of. but i mean. never seething mad like i hope you die in a terrible car crash. well. hmm. actually, i have been that mad at people who were supposed to be my friends. never about a boyfriend/exboyfriend.. and it feels like this song isnt about a girl, but like being betrayed by a friend. so i dunno. the other angry songs are definitely about girls though. its so angry, yet so poppy. im listening to "seventy time 7" on repeat. i cant get over it right now. i dont know why, but this cd has taken over my entire life. if i could, i would listen to 1,2,3,8,9 constantly. over and over. and over. *so dont apologize.. i hope you choke and die!* what is better than angry gang vocals? oh.. nothing! anyway i thought i would start with those lyrics although they are not at all fitting.
my contacts are bothering me. i should take them out. i made like $200 tonight. i do not know how. i got a lot of shitty tips. i did make $51 tax free on a party, though, and i only waited on two tables for it. wooohooo. so im feeling secure in the fact that ive taken off like 6 days next week. i took of 4/24 for on the might of princes at arlene grocery, 4/26 for my orals, 4/27 just so he wouldnt schedule me to make up for all the other days i have off and id have to miss one tree hill, 4/28 and 4/29 for cursive, bc ryan hasnt gotten tickets yet and i had to request off by now.. and finally, 4/30 for the inside reunion. but alas, i have an 8am server meeting the next morning, so all appears to be lost. im going to be verrrry tired, and have to get back to brooklyn the night of the show. maybe ill somehow try to convince the enigma that we should hang out, and that he should drive me to brooklyn. but i think they are playin in n.c. on saturday, so they would have to drive through the night to get there, since they have a show on the 30th also.. hmm.. maybe they could drop me off.. i dunno though, i think that would be way awkward.
so anyway. our super, vientos aka marciano (he goes by both, i dont know what to call him), is coming here at 9:30 to do some wiring. i am very against this, as it 5:21 right now. only four hours sleep before my double tomorrow. UGH. i have to leave here at 11am. if they get done by 10, i can go back to sleep i suppose. this sucks.
um. so yah, i sent the enigma some text messages tonight. one at like 10 saying "so, what, now that we're back to our regular lives you dont sent me steamy messages?" and he didnt respond. so at like midnight i was like "...or any at all. :( well i hope all is well, ill talk to you..." grrr. i hate when he ignores me. maybe he does still have a girlfriend. i mentioned that kim cheated on gonzo and it seemed to make him uncomfortable. i dont know, i didnt *mean* to, we were talking about vegas and i said how derek and kim were fisky and possibly made out while i was sleeping, and i was like "she has a boyfriend." and he got all quiet. fucker. if hes been hiding her from me for like six months ill be a little upset. who am i kidding? it wouldnt change anything.
im going to bed, bc i am a failure. and morally reprehensible. i dont care if i spelled that wrong.
(and i cant let you let me down again.)*
brand new.
i have never been that angry in my whole life at another person. like ive been like "i hope you die" but i never really mean it. well, sort of. but i mean. never seething mad like i hope you die in a terrible car crash. well. hmm. actually, i have been that mad at people who were supposed to be my friends. never about a boyfriend/exboyfriend.. and it feels like this song isnt about a girl, but like being betrayed by a friend. so i dunno. the other angry songs are definitely about girls though. its so angry, yet so poppy. im listening to "seventy time 7" on repeat. i cant get over it right now. i dont know why, but this cd has taken over my entire life. if i could, i would listen to 1,2,3,8,9 constantly. over and over. and over. *so dont apologize.. i hope you choke and die!* what is better than angry gang vocals? oh.. nothing! anyway i thought i would start with those lyrics although they are not at all fitting.
my contacts are bothering me. i should take them out. i made like $200 tonight. i do not know how. i got a lot of shitty tips. i did make $51 tax free on a party, though, and i only waited on two tables for it. wooohooo. so im feeling secure in the fact that ive taken off like 6 days next week. i took of 4/24 for on the might of princes at arlene grocery, 4/26 for my orals, 4/27 just so he wouldnt schedule me to make up for all the other days i have off and id have to miss one tree hill, 4/28 and 4/29 for cursive, bc ryan hasnt gotten tickets yet and i had to request off by now.. and finally, 4/30 for the inside reunion. but alas, i have an 8am server meeting the next morning, so all appears to be lost. im going to be verrrry tired, and have to get back to brooklyn the night of the show. maybe ill somehow try to convince the enigma that we should hang out, and that he should drive me to brooklyn. but i think they are playin in n.c. on saturday, so they would have to drive through the night to get there, since they have a show on the 30th also.. hmm.. maybe they could drop me off.. i dunno though, i think that would be way awkward.
so anyway. our super, vientos aka marciano (he goes by both, i dont know what to call him), is coming here at 9:30 to do some wiring. i am very against this, as it 5:21 right now. only four hours sleep before my double tomorrow. UGH. i have to leave here at 11am. if they get done by 10, i can go back to sleep i suppose. this sucks.
um. so yah, i sent the enigma some text messages tonight. one at like 10 saying "so, what, now that we're back to our regular lives you dont sent me steamy messages?" and he didnt respond. so at like midnight i was like "...or any at all. :( well i hope all is well, ill talk to you..." grrr. i hate when he ignores me. maybe he does still have a girlfriend. i mentioned that kim cheated on gonzo and it seemed to make him uncomfortable. i dont know, i didnt *mean* to, we were talking about vegas and i said how derek and kim were fisky and possibly made out while i was sleeping, and i was like "she has a boyfriend." and he got all quiet. fucker. if hes been hiding her from me for like six months ill be a little upset. who am i kidding? it wouldnt change anything.
im going to bed, bc i am a failure. and morally reprehensible. i dont care if i spelled that wrong.
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