is it too late to heal?

*sometimes men can be so misleading to take what they need from you whatever you need to make you feel like you've been the one behind the wheel the sunrise is just over that hill the worst is over*
cursive

im watching everybody loves raymond. i have a feeling that there will be a big roach sighting tonight. i dont know why. i just have a feeling. i am certainly hoping i was wrong. im way tired. this sucks. kim didnt call me. i figured she wouldnt bc she usually is a failure with things like that. ugh.

eeeeep. eeeeep. so bored. talking to this kid i met on okcupid who apparently is lonely and wants to whine to me. i dont know why i dont just go. hes annoying me, sort of.

candace and i had family night tonight. we watched colonial house and ate pasta. we then had hot fudge sundaes, which were way good. but we had too much it sucked. we tried to watch superstar also, but colonial house really won out. its on again tomorrow. YAY! my away message read: "colonial house, motherfuckers."

baaaah. i talked to the enigma for like 45 seconds today. he said he wished he knew i was gonna be on LI over the weekend and i was like "um, i told you last week, i said you would prob be away all weekend, and that id stay till monday if you were gonna hang out" and he was like "oh, ok, im stupid." um? well.. whatever. my feelings are waning. i still have this tug that says i wanna see him and cuddle.. but the other part is growing stronger and realizing that i can be something to someone instead of being just sex. that or im moving into another purely sexual relationship that will just hurt in the long run. who even cares anymore?

*this will be wasted time if you leave, when you leave*
king for a day.