Tuesday, June 08, 2004
eep. i need to go to bed. ive been waiting for a response from twon but it must be busy for him tonight. im eating utz nachos. mmmm.
so today was alright. i got up, talked to ryan on AIM for a while, then i went into my bed and read a bunch more of the love machine. then i got up and showered. went to see derek's improv thing. it was good. it was a little awkward for me, seeing as there was this blonde girl there with him, who appeared to be the katie. which would explain why i havent heard from him or hung out with him recently. thats ok though, cos ive moved on. justin and shasta were there, so that was cool cos i hadnt seen them in like a month.
i didnt go to the bar with them all afterward. instead i came home to play dr mario with ryan. we listened to cursive and then taking back sunday. he was falling asleep so he left.
i checked my voicemail bc kim had called and i had two! one was from chris! so i smiled all giddy and called him back. we talked for two hours and three minutes. we talked about hamitlon and types of history and therapy and debt and all sorts of things. and i had more gnats in my room, so he was like "yah, i dont think ill be coming out there, i think ill just buy a bigger bed" which made me giggle. he told me that he told his mom that i spent the night with him, which was weird cos now she knows, but.. it was funny, he was like "when i left her after it was done, i was like 'we'll see what happens' bc if i didnt she would have been playing yenta at her own wedding." but he said she was happy for him.. and we talked about lending each other books. then he was hungry so he said he was going to order a turkey burger and go to bed so he could get up in the morning and work on his designs. i asked him if he was free anytime soon, and he said he would call me wednesday about doing something thursday night. he is in a design crunch right now and has to get it done. which is cool. i have semi-plans for tomorrow.. working wednesday. wheee. i kinda really wanna hang out again, im excited to see how it goes and hang out more sober. im feeling good about it today cos i was thinking about it, and how before i got drunk or anything, when we were at the wedding, i wanted to ask mike if his cousin had a girlfriend, but i didnt cos i didnt know if he would tell chris i asked. anyway, yah, im excited about it, and he was all being cute on the phone again, making vague references to times in the future. the drawback to this potential relationship is the fact that an opera singer lives like next door or above him, and she was practicing all day sunday. thats probably why i kept waking up, actually. but it was a little intense. i hope we do something fun. maybe ill see if he wants to go to a movie after i work on thursday. that is, if i get out early enough.. i have to get my schedule tomorrow. the thing with that, though, is that we should get tickets in advance, so we have to talk about it in advance. well maybe we wont need to. we'll see. i wanna do something that doesnt involve alcohol, i think. but what else does one do at 11pm? and will there even be any movies that late on a weekday? maybe we will go to westway. im really excited, i wish thursday was tomorrow. im really happy that he called today and didnt wait a few days.. i hate when guys wait a few days, it makes me more insecure. im also really happy that we could argue points and stuff, we argued about hamilton a little bit.. he told me that he feels like im an old soul bc i have a sense about me that shows my intentions. it was sweet..
this is freaking me out a little, bc i feel like i think about whether or not i have a future with a guy these days.. and trying to weed out the ones that arent potentially the one.. bc i wasted almost 2 years with nick when i could have been meeting new people and falling in love instead of patching up a sinking ship constantly. but with chris, so far, so good. we agree on a lot of important things.. we both want to have three kids. it appears that he likes cats bc when he was looking at pics he was like "awwww look at the kitties!" that is a HUGE bonus. he is really smart, hes artistic. he doesnt have tattoos but he wants some. hes witty, we laugh. but i mean, i cant really know just yet, considering that we only met three days ago.. granted we spent a full 24 hours together the first day (although it was intermittant until about 5pm on saturday.. but from like 5 on sat till 245 on sun we were together), i still cant know everything about him. and what if i move to LI, bc thats what im leaning towards? should i tell him NOW that im thinking about it, so as to find out what he thinks about it? or should i wait to drop the bomb when he already really likes me so that he'll wanna see what happens? i really need to figure that out. i dont want to be deceitful. thats for sure. i mean, i know im not moving FAR, and ill be less than an hour away, and if i am teacher, i will have weekends off.. yah. im thinking way too far in advance again. but i cant help it, i like him, and i am excited about the prospect of starting something new and good and happy, with someone who really likes me, instead of thinking im only good for sex. someone i can talk to and have intellectual discussions, and someone who makes me think instead of sitting lifelessly and constantly wanting to get it on.. also, i really want to invite him to my graduation party, but i am kind of afraid to bring him home just yet. bc he isnt my boyfriend.. and i think it would be hard to explain.. "yah this is the guy im seeing"? riiiiight. i dont think i would be very embarassed, and ive also already met his whole family, so.. i dont know, i will bring it up to him when i see him. ill let it be up to him.
anyway. its like almost 430 and i am tired. i have therapy in the morning, so i should get to bed. no one to talk to on here, anyway. they are having one of their crazy travesties at the W tonight, so twon is unavailable. sooo goodnight :)
so today was alright. i got up, talked to ryan on AIM for a while, then i went into my bed and read a bunch more of the love machine. then i got up and showered. went to see derek's improv thing. it was good. it was a little awkward for me, seeing as there was this blonde girl there with him, who appeared to be the katie. which would explain why i havent heard from him or hung out with him recently. thats ok though, cos ive moved on. justin and shasta were there, so that was cool cos i hadnt seen them in like a month.
i didnt go to the bar with them all afterward. instead i came home to play dr mario with ryan. we listened to cursive and then taking back sunday. he was falling asleep so he left.
i checked my voicemail bc kim had called and i had two! one was from chris! so i smiled all giddy and called him back. we talked for two hours and three minutes. we talked about hamitlon and types of history and therapy and debt and all sorts of things. and i had more gnats in my room, so he was like "yah, i dont think ill be coming out there, i think ill just buy a bigger bed" which made me giggle. he told me that he told his mom that i spent the night with him, which was weird cos now she knows, but.. it was funny, he was like "when i left her after it was done, i was like 'we'll see what happens' bc if i didnt she would have been playing yenta at her own wedding." but he said she was happy for him.. and we talked about lending each other books. then he was hungry so he said he was going to order a turkey burger and go to bed so he could get up in the morning and work on his designs. i asked him if he was free anytime soon, and he said he would call me wednesday about doing something thursday night. he is in a design crunch right now and has to get it done. which is cool. i have semi-plans for tomorrow.. working wednesday. wheee. i kinda really wanna hang out again, im excited to see how it goes and hang out more sober. im feeling good about it today cos i was thinking about it, and how before i got drunk or anything, when we were at the wedding, i wanted to ask mike if his cousin had a girlfriend, but i didnt cos i didnt know if he would tell chris i asked. anyway, yah, im excited about it, and he was all being cute on the phone again, making vague references to times in the future. the drawback to this potential relationship is the fact that an opera singer lives like next door or above him, and she was practicing all day sunday. thats probably why i kept waking up, actually. but it was a little intense. i hope we do something fun. maybe ill see if he wants to go to a movie after i work on thursday. that is, if i get out early enough.. i have to get my schedule tomorrow. the thing with that, though, is that we should get tickets in advance, so we have to talk about it in advance. well maybe we wont need to. we'll see. i wanna do something that doesnt involve alcohol, i think. but what else does one do at 11pm? and will there even be any movies that late on a weekday? maybe we will go to westway. im really excited, i wish thursday was tomorrow. im really happy that he called today and didnt wait a few days.. i hate when guys wait a few days, it makes me more insecure. im also really happy that we could argue points and stuff, we argued about hamilton a little bit.. he told me that he feels like im an old soul bc i have a sense about me that shows my intentions. it was sweet..
this is freaking me out a little, bc i feel like i think about whether or not i have a future with a guy these days.. and trying to weed out the ones that arent potentially the one.. bc i wasted almost 2 years with nick when i could have been meeting new people and falling in love instead of patching up a sinking ship constantly. but with chris, so far, so good. we agree on a lot of important things.. we both want to have three kids. it appears that he likes cats bc when he was looking at pics he was like "awwww look at the kitties!" that is a HUGE bonus. he is really smart, hes artistic. he doesnt have tattoos but he wants some. hes witty, we laugh. but i mean, i cant really know just yet, considering that we only met three days ago.. granted we spent a full 24 hours together the first day (although it was intermittant until about 5pm on saturday.. but from like 5 on sat till 245 on sun we were together), i still cant know everything about him. and what if i move to LI, bc thats what im leaning towards? should i tell him NOW that im thinking about it, so as to find out what he thinks about it? or should i wait to drop the bomb when he already really likes me so that he'll wanna see what happens? i really need to figure that out. i dont want to be deceitful. thats for sure. i mean, i know im not moving FAR, and ill be less than an hour away, and if i am teacher, i will have weekends off.. yah. im thinking way too far in advance again. but i cant help it, i like him, and i am excited about the prospect of starting something new and good and happy, with someone who really likes me, instead of thinking im only good for sex. someone i can talk to and have intellectual discussions, and someone who makes me think instead of sitting lifelessly and constantly wanting to get it on.. also, i really want to invite him to my graduation party, but i am kind of afraid to bring him home just yet. bc he isnt my boyfriend.. and i think it would be hard to explain.. "yah this is the guy im seeing"? riiiiight. i dont think i would be very embarassed, and ive also already met his whole family, so.. i dont know, i will bring it up to him when i see him. ill let it be up to him.
anyway. its like almost 430 and i am tired. i have therapy in the morning, so i should get to bed. no one to talk to on here, anyway. they are having one of their crazy travesties at the W tonight, so twon is unavailable. sooo goodnight :)
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