is it too late to heal?

*i am so in love with you. whatever you want to do is alright with me.. cos you make me feel so brand new. and i want to spend my life with you.*
al green

aaaah. ok so first of all, last night, my display started acting funny on my phone. i woke up this morning and it was completely gone. no more display. so i went to the sprint store and i got a new phone, but i dont like it very much. however, it does have old skool text messaging, which is way better than shortmail. buuutt.. i have no idea if messages are included or if im spending a lot of money using them. we shall see.. ok i checked and i need to upgrade for $10 a month.. but thats ok cos i can get less minutes then. woo. ok.

so.. the enigma. well.. so last nights insanity continued till like 6am, and he said he wanted to see me tonight after practice. right now it is 1115 and i havent yet heard from him. he said practice usually ends around 1030. soooo... im afraid he wont come. that would make me soo sad. i just sent him a message saying that i am home and asking if hes still practicing. i hope he messages back that hes at exit 50 or something! that would be awesome, though highly unlikely. he said he's gonna come sleep over.. i dont know though. i messaged with him at like 430, and he said he still intended on coming out, this time to sleep.. sooooooo.. i dont know i dont know i dont know! just message me baaaaaack (whine, whine). oh no. he messaged me back that his car is being insane, it wouldnt start and now the alarm keeps going off and he cant make it stop. nooooo! this undoubtedly means no cuddles for me tonight. i swear i have the worst luck in the world.