Friday, June 11, 2004
no lyrics again. need some new emo!
soooooooo the enigma is back in full force today. like last nights drama that i babbled about being sad and weird and.. like it was an omen. or something. because i woke up at 1230 and i had a text from him saying he was stressed out bc he is leaving for three months, and his sister is having marital problems, and he is having girl problems.. and he said it was bc laura is moving away and he is going away.. and shes moving to manhattan, and thats too far for him. so i said "i dont know what to say. good advice doesnt often come from the other girl." and so he asked how i was, and i said i was alright, that i had met a really great boy, but that im leaving soon. so he said we had a similar predicament. and he asked again when i was moving home. he said he would keep me company when i did. but he will be on tour till like october, so.. then he asked when i was free next week.. i told him my schedule, and i said to call me whenever he has some time, and i'll hang out unless they take hamilton off the $10 bill in favor of ronald reagan, in which case im leaving the country. so he said "i hope they dont. thats one of the stupidest ideas ever." and i said reagan already has an airport and he doesnt deserve to be on my money. he said "i miss you girlie." and i said "i miss you, boy.." and oops there is my phone vibrating again.. "i cant wait to see yr cuteness now. hehe. im all giggles for some reason. hehe." oh, why do you do this to meeee? im a mess now, and i feel like im cheating on you. but im not bc you have a girl! and why shouldnt i have a guy? why should i feel bad about having a boy that i like? but i do! i fucking do, and i miss you so bad now, i cant wait to see you and im planning all my witty jokes in advance, so you smile and laugh and want to stay with me forever.
ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh. whyyyyy? this is incredibly unfair. my logical half is like "dont be stupid, he is only going to cling to you bc laura is gone. and even if you end up together, he'll probably cheat on you with her, like he did on her with you. so stop." it is like an internal war. it needs to stop. one side simply has to kill the other, i think.
but.. im still sort of excited to see chris tonight. not as excited as i was before i heard from the enigma all day and had the swelling of my heart take place. but excited. i have to remember to bring a contact case and some solution, and my glasses.. and.. what else.. i think thats it. a change of underwear would be good.
so. yah. there goes the vibration again. he said "alright so we'll hang out next week. im nost sure when, but ill give you a text. hehe or else ill just show up. whatever is easiest for you. is there anything you want to do?" and so i wrote "if its daytime and nice out, we can lay in the sun and have lots of hugs." mmm.. hugs... mmmmm.... hugs!! but but but.. this is WRONG. wrong, wrong, wrong. WRONG. but hes soooooo... cute and adorable and giggley and and.. and he means so much to me.
seriously. if one side doesnt kill the other soon, im going to go crazy.
soooooooo the enigma is back in full force today. like last nights drama that i babbled about being sad and weird and.. like it was an omen. or something. because i woke up at 1230 and i had a text from him saying he was stressed out bc he is leaving for three months, and his sister is having marital problems, and he is having girl problems.. and he said it was bc laura is moving away and he is going away.. and shes moving to manhattan, and thats too far for him. so i said "i dont know what to say. good advice doesnt often come from the other girl." and so he asked how i was, and i said i was alright, that i had met a really great boy, but that im leaving soon. so he said we had a similar predicament. and he asked again when i was moving home. he said he would keep me company when i did. but he will be on tour till like october, so.. then he asked when i was free next week.. i told him my schedule, and i said to call me whenever he has some time, and i'll hang out unless they take hamilton off the $10 bill in favor of ronald reagan, in which case im leaving the country. so he said "i hope they dont. thats one of the stupidest ideas ever." and i said reagan already has an airport and he doesnt deserve to be on my money. he said "i miss you girlie." and i said "i miss you, boy.." and oops there is my phone vibrating again.. "i cant wait to see yr cuteness now. hehe. im all giggles for some reason. hehe." oh, why do you do this to meeee? im a mess now, and i feel like im cheating on you. but im not bc you have a girl! and why shouldnt i have a guy? why should i feel bad about having a boy that i like? but i do! i fucking do, and i miss you so bad now, i cant wait to see you and im planning all my witty jokes in advance, so you smile and laugh and want to stay with me forever.
ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh. whyyyyy? this is incredibly unfair. my logical half is like "dont be stupid, he is only going to cling to you bc laura is gone. and even if you end up together, he'll probably cheat on you with her, like he did on her with you. so stop." it is like an internal war. it needs to stop. one side simply has to kill the other, i think.
but.. im still sort of excited to see chris tonight. not as excited as i was before i heard from the enigma all day and had the swelling of my heart take place. but excited. i have to remember to bring a contact case and some solution, and my glasses.. and.. what else.. i think thats it. a change of underwear would be good.
so. yah. there goes the vibration again. he said "alright so we'll hang out next week. im nost sure when, but ill give you a text. hehe or else ill just show up. whatever is easiest for you. is there anything you want to do?" and so i wrote "if its daytime and nice out, we can lay in the sun and have lots of hugs." mmm.. hugs... mmmmm.... hugs!! but but but.. this is WRONG. wrong, wrong, wrong. WRONG. but hes soooooo... cute and adorable and giggley and and.. and he means so much to me.
seriously. if one side doesnt kill the other soon, im going to go crazy.
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