Wednesday, June 23, 2004
*you keep fucking up my life*
jets to brazil
i suppose that having nothing to say was good for posting pics. woo. so now there are five more of me. and wow, there is the infamous mike i spend a lot of my time with. so ok, mike.. chris was saying he doesnt believe that there is no tension between mike and i, because we sleep in the same bed and hang out a lot. so yesterday when i was hanging out with mike, i took great care to notice if there was, in fact, tension. nope. nothing. its like any of my girlfriends. i see mike like i see candace or antonia or katie. but yah, so thats what he looks like, in case you ever wondered.
well lets see.. while im here, i may as well say something. um, well saturday was fun. candace and i drove out to LI with ryan, it was a really gorgeous day. we hung out with my whole family.. val, mike, antonia, and lee also showed up after a few minutes. so we all drank and ate and chatted. my momma got me a necklace from tiffany's!! so exciting. anyway. candace and i were pretty drunk for a while, my brother was *trashed* it was hilarious. we drank from like 3pm till midnight. well, candace, mike and i did. katie and dennis got there at like 830, when the rest of us had just gotten out of the pool. we has cake, chilled.. val left, ryan left, lee left, antonia left. so then candace, mike, katie, dennis and i all laid in the grass and looked at the stars while drinking beers. it got cold so i got a blanket. candace took the 1242 train back to the city so she could see stef, and mike and i went over to katie's. we smoked with them and watched the last half of charlie's angels: full throttle, then the last half of phone booth, and then he first half of the in-laws. it was like 330 so we went back to my dads, mike slept over. whee.
sunday was fathers day.. woke up at 1, went out to the kitchen and saw my dad. my brother came over, and then we went to see harry potter. my dad wanted to see it, but no one wanted to go with him. it was pretty good. maybe i will cave and read the books. after the movies (cursive song!) we went to radio shack and i bought my dad an S cable. went home, talked to linda and decided to go to the california diner (MMMM!!) for dinner. we all got eggs, except my dad, who got a rueben. went home, read the paper with my dad, watched some tv, and then my brother took me to my mothers house. got there, talked to her for a few minutes, then i went over to katie's house again. smoked, watched tv.. then she told me about the sachem alumni postings.. so we were looking and thats when i found out about mike loper's death. boo. :( i was all in shock, smoked some cigarettes, and then it was like 130 and i decided i should go home bc katie had to get up early in the morning. went home, watched something on king arthur and whether or not he really existed on the history channel. fun.
monday morning i woke up at 1130 and i was all cozy with the kitty in my bed. so i went back to sleep till 1230 when mike called me. i told him i would call him later cos i was going to hang out with him at night. finally disturbed yoda and got up. showered. i hate showering on LI bc the water is hard and i never feel clean afterward. boo!! it sucks. so whatever, i went to the mall, i got myself some socks, and i got my mom one of those candles that are for show, not utility.. it is in the shapes of three siamese cats. i got her an outfit at h&m, and i got her the new outkast cd (yes, my mom likes outkast. she is so weird.) i got my brother a t-shirt with homer simpson on it, laying on the couch in tighty whities, and it says "livin la vida sofa" hehe. um. then i went to borders, i got my dad a book on tape and i got myself: the notebook by nicholas sparks, a separate peace by john knowles, animal farm by george orwell, the fuck-up by arthur nersesian, and fight club by chuck palahniuk. all this to avoid reading great expectations. i started reading the notebook yesterday, and i am on page 67. its supposed to be heart-breaking, which we all know i LOVE in fiction. i cant wait to cry! i saw the coming attraction for the movie at harry potter, so i decided i should read it before it comes out, and then i can see it in the movies and cry there, too. and then i can hate the movie, cos its never as good as the book. i think i will read it some more when i finish the crossword puzzle.
ok so after shopping i picked up pictures (hence new postings) and went home. gave mom her presents, went downstairs to scan pics.. went out to dinner with mom for her birthday, we had italian and the guy gave us free zepoles (i know i spelled that wrong) and they were sooooo goooooood! mm. it brought me back to the days of carnivals. we chatted and then went home. i then talked to chris for a while and then i took the train out to mineola. met up with mike, went to walgreen's for some icy hot (my shoulder was ouchy).. then we went to the jericho diner, i had some chocolate pudding and mike had sausage and eggs. we drove back to brooklyn listening to boston (ahahahaha.. "more than a feeling"!!!), it took us literally like half hour to find a parking space (grrr). went to the store for toilet paper and beer. hung out with candace.
so i went on AOL and the enigma was on.. hes like "hey" and then he asked if i got his texts.. so i said i didnt, and i checked my short mail.. and of course, there are 2 messages.. one from 1212am saying "hey girlie. whats cookin? are you still on LI?" and the next one said "well goodnight angel. hope you have the sweetest dreams." and i was like grrr, but i was already in brooklyn. some select parts of our IM conversation:
him: i had to fix the van today.
me: you so should have called me so i could have watched.
him: ha. I tried to text you to see if you wanted to get together.
me: yah i see that now.. that sucks :( i was already in brooklyn by then though, i got here at 1130..
him: doh.
me: i wanna see you!! boooooo
him: thats why I tm'ed you silly
me: when will you be back?
him: wed night
me: perhaps we can get together thurs? during the day
him: sounds doable
me: i prob have work at 5
him: ok we can work that out i think
me: heh. you could drive me to work lol
him: that would be great. ha
me: i know its one of yr favorite activities lol
him: true. very true
...
him: i wish i could've snuck into your apt tonight.
me: me too.. that would have been so hot. that would be the best sneaky thing ever
him: i so wanted to before
me: i so STILL want you to heheh
him: i want you so bad
me: oh yah? how bad?
him: real bad
me: mmmm.. i want you.
him: i wish you were still on li
me: i wish i was too. you could crawl into my bed.
and so on and so forth. mike got all mad at me, bc he was like "i cant believe you are letting him talk to you like that, i cant believe he's calling you angel and blah blah blah.." and he went on about how i hadnt been tlaking to the enigma for a while, and i was doing so good, and all he was trying to do is hook up before they go on tour and dont i know any better yet blahhhh. i was like yah. he always wins. i always give in to the enigma. i cannot help myself. i have a feeling he is upstate with the woman because he avoided the question both times i asked why he was going upstate. i got my period yesterday, so if he came out thursday it would be disappointing.. so i am not getting my hopes up. i'll be on LI this weekend again, so at least then i might see him. i think i will go from sat-mon again, bc then i can prob see him monday, and maybe even get a ride back or something.
anyway. thats about it for the update. i have a lack of significant emotion, im feeling slightly empty and bored with everything in my life.. so its hard to talk about. you know? i feel like im saying the same thing over and over again lately, and i hate when my journals cease to be insightful and become rosters of my life..
im gonna go do the crossword. i wish i was gonna have more to say later, but i doubt it. maybe if i smoke enough...
jets to brazil
i suppose that having nothing to say was good for posting pics. woo. so now there are five more of me. and wow, there is the infamous mike i spend a lot of my time with. so ok, mike.. chris was saying he doesnt believe that there is no tension between mike and i, because we sleep in the same bed and hang out a lot. so yesterday when i was hanging out with mike, i took great care to notice if there was, in fact, tension. nope. nothing. its like any of my girlfriends. i see mike like i see candace or antonia or katie. but yah, so thats what he looks like, in case you ever wondered.
well lets see.. while im here, i may as well say something. um, well saturday was fun. candace and i drove out to LI with ryan, it was a really gorgeous day. we hung out with my whole family.. val, mike, antonia, and lee also showed up after a few minutes. so we all drank and ate and chatted. my momma got me a necklace from tiffany's!! so exciting. anyway. candace and i were pretty drunk for a while, my brother was *trashed* it was hilarious. we drank from like 3pm till midnight. well, candace, mike and i did. katie and dennis got there at like 830, when the rest of us had just gotten out of the pool. we has cake, chilled.. val left, ryan left, lee left, antonia left. so then candace, mike, katie, dennis and i all laid in the grass and looked at the stars while drinking beers. it got cold so i got a blanket. candace took the 1242 train back to the city so she could see stef, and mike and i went over to katie's. we smoked with them and watched the last half of charlie's angels: full throttle, then the last half of phone booth, and then he first half of the in-laws. it was like 330 so we went back to my dads, mike slept over. whee.
sunday was fathers day.. woke up at 1, went out to the kitchen and saw my dad. my brother came over, and then we went to see harry potter. my dad wanted to see it, but no one wanted to go with him. it was pretty good. maybe i will cave and read the books. after the movies (cursive song!) we went to radio shack and i bought my dad an S cable. went home, talked to linda and decided to go to the california diner (MMMM!!) for dinner. we all got eggs, except my dad, who got a rueben. went home, read the paper with my dad, watched some tv, and then my brother took me to my mothers house. got there, talked to her for a few minutes, then i went over to katie's house again. smoked, watched tv.. then she told me about the sachem alumni postings.. so we were looking and thats when i found out about mike loper's death. boo. :( i was all in shock, smoked some cigarettes, and then it was like 130 and i decided i should go home bc katie had to get up early in the morning. went home, watched something on king arthur and whether or not he really existed on the history channel. fun.
monday morning i woke up at 1130 and i was all cozy with the kitty in my bed. so i went back to sleep till 1230 when mike called me. i told him i would call him later cos i was going to hang out with him at night. finally disturbed yoda and got up. showered. i hate showering on LI bc the water is hard and i never feel clean afterward. boo!! it sucks. so whatever, i went to the mall, i got myself some socks, and i got my mom one of those candles that are for show, not utility.. it is in the shapes of three siamese cats. i got her an outfit at h&m, and i got her the new outkast cd (yes, my mom likes outkast. she is so weird.) i got my brother a t-shirt with homer simpson on it, laying on the couch in tighty whities, and it says "livin la vida sofa" hehe. um. then i went to borders, i got my dad a book on tape and i got myself: the notebook by nicholas sparks, a separate peace by john knowles, animal farm by george orwell, the fuck-up by arthur nersesian, and fight club by chuck palahniuk. all this to avoid reading great expectations. i started reading the notebook yesterday, and i am on page 67. its supposed to be heart-breaking, which we all know i LOVE in fiction. i cant wait to cry! i saw the coming attraction for the movie at harry potter, so i decided i should read it before it comes out, and then i can see it in the movies and cry there, too. and then i can hate the movie, cos its never as good as the book. i think i will read it some more when i finish the crossword puzzle.
ok so after shopping i picked up pictures (hence new postings) and went home. gave mom her presents, went downstairs to scan pics.. went out to dinner with mom for her birthday, we had italian and the guy gave us free zepoles (i know i spelled that wrong) and they were sooooo goooooood! mm. it brought me back to the days of carnivals. we chatted and then went home. i then talked to chris for a while and then i took the train out to mineola. met up with mike, went to walgreen's for some icy hot (my shoulder was ouchy).. then we went to the jericho diner, i had some chocolate pudding and mike had sausage and eggs. we drove back to brooklyn listening to boston (ahahahaha.. "more than a feeling"!!!), it took us literally like half hour to find a parking space (grrr). went to the store for toilet paper and beer. hung out with candace.
so i went on AOL and the enigma was on.. hes like "hey" and then he asked if i got his texts.. so i said i didnt, and i checked my short mail.. and of course, there are 2 messages.. one from 1212am saying "hey girlie. whats cookin? are you still on LI?" and the next one said "well goodnight angel. hope you have the sweetest dreams." and i was like grrr, but i was already in brooklyn. some select parts of our IM conversation:
him: i had to fix the van today.
me: you so should have called me so i could have watched.
him: ha. I tried to text you to see if you wanted to get together.
me: yah i see that now.. that sucks :( i was already in brooklyn by then though, i got here at 1130..
him: doh.
me: i wanna see you!! boooooo
him: thats why I tm'ed you silly
me: when will you be back?
him: wed night
me: perhaps we can get together thurs? during the day
him: sounds doable
me: i prob have work at 5
him: ok we can work that out i think
me: heh. you could drive me to work lol
him: that would be great. ha
me: i know its one of yr favorite activities lol
him: true. very true
...
him: i wish i could've snuck into your apt tonight.
me: me too.. that would have been so hot. that would be the best sneaky thing ever
him: i so wanted to before
me: i so STILL want you to heheh
him: i want you so bad
me: oh yah? how bad?
him: real bad
me: mmmm.. i want you.
him: i wish you were still on li
me: i wish i was too. you could crawl into my bed.
and so on and so forth. mike got all mad at me, bc he was like "i cant believe you are letting him talk to you like that, i cant believe he's calling you angel and blah blah blah.." and he went on about how i hadnt been tlaking to the enigma for a while, and i was doing so good, and all he was trying to do is hook up before they go on tour and dont i know any better yet blahhhh. i was like yah. he always wins. i always give in to the enigma. i cannot help myself. i have a feeling he is upstate with the woman because he avoided the question both times i asked why he was going upstate. i got my period yesterday, so if he came out thursday it would be disappointing.. so i am not getting my hopes up. i'll be on LI this weekend again, so at least then i might see him. i think i will go from sat-mon again, bc then i can prob see him monday, and maybe even get a ride back or something.
anyway. thats about it for the update. i have a lack of significant emotion, im feeling slightly empty and bored with everything in my life.. so its hard to talk about. you know? i feel like im saying the same thing over and over again lately, and i hate when my journals cease to be insightful and become rosters of my life..
im gonna go do the crossword. i wish i was gonna have more to say later, but i doubt it. maybe if i smoke enough...
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