is it too late to heal?

i dont think he's coming. its midnight right now, and i havent heard from him since like 530. AAHAHHHAAHH with those words that came off my fingers, my phone began to vibrate, and it says.. "yea. definitely. im leaving now. cool?" YAY YAY YAY!!! ok so the hour long wait begins.. i could clean my room. i could eat something. i could chain smoke a pack of cigarettes in anticipation. ok i have an hour.. maybe 45 mins at this hour.. i wanna brush my teeth again. cos he is anti the fact that i am a smoker. and i dont smoke around him, unless there is a big discussion taking place, or i get emotional, or if the lovin is hotttt and i need one. wow, im kinda starving. ok im going now, bc i need to clean clean clean and make my home presentable. YAY YAY YAY!