Saturday, July 10, 2004
so. my little counter is magic. it tells me WHO visits. its great. no, its better than great. granted most of them i have no idea who it could be. BUT someone from pace is trafficing my blog.. and they found it by typing the title of my blog into google. this is all very exciting to me. i wonder if i know this mysterious pace person, though i am willing to bet i do. i shall not name names.
someone did a google search for "wet jeans pee" and for some reason or another, my blog must have been in the search results. because the site meter tells me so. so very exciting. im now obsessed with my site tracker. pace is the only visitor that stays long. the others have 0 second visits. someone else stayed for a few minutes today, but its just an IP address, and they came by typing in my domain. sooo. hmm.. i suppose if you are one of my mysterious readers, then you know who you are. but i do not. not fair. but its cool. we can keep our distance.
its weirdly hard for me to say anything of import right now. maybe this site meter was a bad idea.
um. well i guess i worked today. i made like $190 wooooo. i worked hard. i should have made more, i had a lot of one tops with $14 checks, but i still managed to sell $1100. wooo! if my checks had been higher, it could have been super money day for me.
i talked to derek for a while, im a little concerned about him lately. hes more soft spoken than usual, he doesnt crack jokes nearly as much as he used to.. he seems lonely. the times when i like him the most.. but anyway, he is seeming a bit despondant. did i spell that right? hes reminding me of how he was when we were hanging out. he came in today and he was like "hey gorgeous!" and then we were talking about something outside and he was like very intensely looking at my eyes and holding my attention. and then he was complaining that id given away my shift for tomorrow, he was like "who am i gonna hang out with?" and i pointed out that i was upstairs, anyway. whatever so then i changed into my regular clothes and went to say goodbye to everyone, and he was like "you look really good" and i thanked him. i wanted it to be us at a bar, bearing it all, as we did, and going home together to not be lonely. and i told him i was getting my car fixed, and we could go to the beach, and his eyes lit up for a second, which made me happy. perhaps now is the time to try to get him to wanna hang out one day. he makes me forget about the enigma. i mean, not FORGET, but at least i wake up with him expecting derek in the morning. since i have a lot of trouble with waking up with boys, and wishing they were the enigma. i like when its derek. eases the lonliness.. and we are two lonely people.
thats about it. still havent heard from the boy.. as always im sure hes blowing it off, bc that is easiest for him. i thought about texting him with something like "i thought id hear from you by the end of the weekend, but i guess you DONT care" but that is giving him too much. ill let it fade away. fade fade fade. it wont, im sure. ill hear from him. he'll be sorry, he'll miss me. blah blah blah blah blah. its all empty fucking words.
also, i have not heard from kimberly in a long time. this is upsetting me, bc we used to count on each other for crazy talk. and no one else can handle the purge we commit when we are together like we can. its weird, i was thinking about her the other day, and she has changed soo much from when we met. i met her like 2.5 years ago, but when we first started hanging out in sept 2002, she was real skinny with dredlocks and she was straight edge. she cut out her dreds like a year and a half ago, bc she had to look more professional for her internship. she lost her edge on her 21st birthday, which was just about a year ago. shes filled out, probably from having a boyfriend.. she seems very different at times.. sometimes i miss the old kim. she was always flakey, but lately i feel abandoned. she came into my life at a crucial time, when i needed a friend, and we instantly bonded. what happened to that?? :'( crying face.
ok. im going to go take a nap. mike will be here in an hour to say hi before he goes into the city. candace will likely be home in about an hour as well, she was leaving melasia's in a bit. which means i will have to get up. she said something about watching a funny movie. maybe we can go to blockbuster. i can rent fight club. well, no. its saturday night. no movies will be in stock. grr.
nap nap nap time!
someone did a google search for "wet jeans pee" and for some reason or another, my blog must have been in the search results. because the site meter tells me so. so very exciting. im now obsessed with my site tracker. pace is the only visitor that stays long. the others have 0 second visits. someone else stayed for a few minutes today, but its just an IP address, and they came by typing in my domain. sooo. hmm.. i suppose if you are one of my mysterious readers, then you know who you are. but i do not. not fair. but its cool. we can keep our distance.
its weirdly hard for me to say anything of import right now. maybe this site meter was a bad idea.
um. well i guess i worked today. i made like $190 wooooo. i worked hard. i should have made more, i had a lot of one tops with $14 checks, but i still managed to sell $1100. wooo! if my checks had been higher, it could have been super money day for me.
i talked to derek for a while, im a little concerned about him lately. hes more soft spoken than usual, he doesnt crack jokes nearly as much as he used to.. he seems lonely. the times when i like him the most.. but anyway, he is seeming a bit despondant. did i spell that right? hes reminding me of how he was when we were hanging out. he came in today and he was like "hey gorgeous!" and then we were talking about something outside and he was like very intensely looking at my eyes and holding my attention. and then he was complaining that id given away my shift for tomorrow, he was like "who am i gonna hang out with?" and i pointed out that i was upstairs, anyway. whatever so then i changed into my regular clothes and went to say goodbye to everyone, and he was like "you look really good" and i thanked him. i wanted it to be us at a bar, bearing it all, as we did, and going home together to not be lonely. and i told him i was getting my car fixed, and we could go to the beach, and his eyes lit up for a second, which made me happy. perhaps now is the time to try to get him to wanna hang out one day. he makes me forget about the enigma. i mean, not FORGET, but at least i wake up with him expecting derek in the morning. since i have a lot of trouble with waking up with boys, and wishing they were the enigma. i like when its derek. eases the lonliness.. and we are two lonely people.
thats about it. still havent heard from the boy.. as always im sure hes blowing it off, bc that is easiest for him. i thought about texting him with something like "i thought id hear from you by the end of the weekend, but i guess you DONT care" but that is giving him too much. ill let it fade away. fade fade fade. it wont, im sure. ill hear from him. he'll be sorry, he'll miss me. blah blah blah blah blah. its all empty fucking words.
also, i have not heard from kimberly in a long time. this is upsetting me, bc we used to count on each other for crazy talk. and no one else can handle the purge we commit when we are together like we can. its weird, i was thinking about her the other day, and she has changed soo much from when we met. i met her like 2.5 years ago, but when we first started hanging out in sept 2002, she was real skinny with dredlocks and she was straight edge. she cut out her dreds like a year and a half ago, bc she had to look more professional for her internship. she lost her edge on her 21st birthday, which was just about a year ago. shes filled out, probably from having a boyfriend.. she seems very different at times.. sometimes i miss the old kim. she was always flakey, but lately i feel abandoned. she came into my life at a crucial time, when i needed a friend, and we instantly bonded. what happened to that?? :'( crying face.
ok. im going to go take a nap. mike will be here in an hour to say hi before he goes into the city. candace will likely be home in about an hour as well, she was leaving melasia's in a bit. which means i will have to get up. she said something about watching a funny movie. maybe we can go to blockbuster. i can rent fight club. well, no. its saturday night. no movies will be in stock. grr.
nap nap nap time!
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