Friday, July 02, 2004
*while yr counting sheep, ill count my lucky stars.. you were the last good thing i ever saw.. but i lost it all.. i lost it all..*
alkaline trio
bah. im really tired. i havent slept well. i keep being afraid that if i fall asleep i wont wake up.
tonight is an enigmaful night. i mean, as enigmaful as it could be without any contact with him, i suppose. i keep thinking about him. they played reno tonight.. san diego (i think) tomorrow.. somewhere in southern cali.. its 1am where he is, again.. i keep wondering what hes thinking about.. if hes thinkin about me, if he misses me.. its been like five solid days with no interaction. thats kind of a long time in terms of us.. i keep looking at my phone, seeing if he broke yet and sent a message.. but no. nothing. he is respecting my wishes.. i wonder if he has the urge to message me, and tell me he's thinking of me.. i wonder if he is having a hard time with it. probably not. maybe this time laura is providing him with dirty text messages.. i doubt it. i bet he is just fine, though.. i wish that he was lost and lonely without me, but he isnt. hes probably with his friends right now, being an ass or maybe flirting with some SoCal girl.. maybe hes sleeping in the van. or driving along some highway, listening to alkaline trio, too, and wishing i were with him. no, gille, thats not whats happening. he is not wishing you were there. YOU MEAN NOTHING TO HIM.
fuck the world. fuck the world HARD.
alkaline trio
bah. im really tired. i havent slept well. i keep being afraid that if i fall asleep i wont wake up.
tonight is an enigmaful night. i mean, as enigmaful as it could be without any contact with him, i suppose. i keep thinking about him. they played reno tonight.. san diego (i think) tomorrow.. somewhere in southern cali.. its 1am where he is, again.. i keep wondering what hes thinking about.. if hes thinkin about me, if he misses me.. its been like five solid days with no interaction. thats kind of a long time in terms of us.. i keep looking at my phone, seeing if he broke yet and sent a message.. but no. nothing. he is respecting my wishes.. i wonder if he has the urge to message me, and tell me he's thinking of me.. i wonder if he is having a hard time with it. probably not. maybe this time laura is providing him with dirty text messages.. i doubt it. i bet he is just fine, though.. i wish that he was lost and lonely without me, but he isnt. hes probably with his friends right now, being an ass or maybe flirting with some SoCal girl.. maybe hes sleeping in the van. or driving along some highway, listening to alkaline trio, too, and wishing i were with him. no, gille, thats not whats happening. he is not wishing you were there. YOU MEAN NOTHING TO HIM.
fuck the world. fuck the world HARD.
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