Friday, September 03, 2004
im tired. im disillusioned. im laying on my bed typing this. not easy, just so you know.. today was alright i guess. i went to the mall and spent $400 on school clothes. that was the money i had been saving for a vacation. im not happy about this. i have to look professional, though, so its all for the best, im sure.
its very cold.
so i finally got a response from the boy today (he hadnt responded to my texts since tuesday night) and he claimed to have responded to all the texts i sent him, but he was having problems with texts going though north of 25a, which is where he has been. then i asked if he had any free time coming up, and he magically had a "problem" again, i guess, cos i didnt hear back from him. either the phone gods dont want us to hang out, or hes a liar. i would put my money on the latter. he can pretty much go fuck himself right now. when i was in brooklyn and he was on tour or he was on li, all he could talk about was how bad he wanted to see me, and he missed me, and he wanted me all the time.. but now i have been living 15 minutes away from him for 6 days and he has attempted to hang out with me exactly no times. im not stupid, you know.
i heard from kim on tuesday, she texted me saying she was back on the wagon due to friday night's insanity. she claims not to remember most of friday night, and was sick all day saturday. i told that to lee today and he was like "shes lying! theres no way she doesnt remember friday night!" but whatever. she called me and i said i was driving so she could call me later.. she didnt though. i was reallllllly upset tuesday night, i called her after i was on the phone with mike, crying, for like an hour, bc of the stupid enigma boy.. and she could tell i was upset but i didnt wanna talk about it, bc right now she is not on my good list.. she is on my shitlist. she wanted to hang out today, but my truck needed a new radiator and had to go to the shop, so i hung out with michael, who is sleeping, instead. she cant drive on highways, and i obviously couldnt go out there.. oh well. i actually still havent heard from her. whatever though.
blah blah blah.
im tired and depressed, im going to bed.
its very cold.
so i finally got a response from the boy today (he hadnt responded to my texts since tuesday night) and he claimed to have responded to all the texts i sent him, but he was having problems with texts going though north of 25a, which is where he has been. then i asked if he had any free time coming up, and he magically had a "problem" again, i guess, cos i didnt hear back from him. either the phone gods dont want us to hang out, or hes a liar. i would put my money on the latter. he can pretty much go fuck himself right now. when i was in brooklyn and he was on tour or he was on li, all he could talk about was how bad he wanted to see me, and he missed me, and he wanted me all the time.. but now i have been living 15 minutes away from him for 6 days and he has attempted to hang out with me exactly no times. im not stupid, you know.
i heard from kim on tuesday, she texted me saying she was back on the wagon due to friday night's insanity. she claims not to remember most of friday night, and was sick all day saturday. i told that to lee today and he was like "shes lying! theres no way she doesnt remember friday night!" but whatever. she called me and i said i was driving so she could call me later.. she didnt though. i was reallllllly upset tuesday night, i called her after i was on the phone with mike, crying, for like an hour, bc of the stupid enigma boy.. and she could tell i was upset but i didnt wanna talk about it, bc right now she is not on my good list.. she is on my shitlist. she wanted to hang out today, but my truck needed a new radiator and had to go to the shop, so i hung out with michael, who is sleeping, instead. she cant drive on highways, and i obviously couldnt go out there.. oh well. i actually still havent heard from her. whatever though.
blah blah blah.
im tired and depressed, im going to bed.
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