is it too late to heal?

i really believed it when she said that this was a great thing coming from a bad thing. that everything does happen for a greater, better thing to come along. tricked again! not by her, i dont think, but by the powers that be. seriously, if there is a god, s/he *lives* to smite me. hey, look, somebody awesome is walking into yr life! haha, watch as they walk away. fooled ya!grrr.i dont even know why i bother with people anyway. didnt i swear i was giving up any type of feelings, cos i knew i would just end up hurt again? the story of my life. ....well, you took me by surprise, cos at first i thought you were just an amazing girl. and you turned out to be so much better than that.and i miss you.