Friday, December 24, 2004
these words, fall from yr mouth and stab me in the back. it should have never come to this. it's too late, for yr apologies they cant bring back all that you've taken from me, stripped of my pride, and left for dead.. this time is the last time i take this abuse. i've found my place, and this place is far away from you. how can you say, im at fault? the one to blame is you. stripped of my pride, and left for dead.. im so tired of apologizing to myself for you and what you've done to me.. and ive tried to forgive myself for caring about you, theres nothing i can do.. theres nothing i can do.. theres nothing i can do.. this time is the last time i take this abuse i've found my place, and this place is far away from you.. im so tired of apologizing to myself for you and what you've done to me.. and ive tried, to forgive myself for caring about you, theres nothing i can do.. im so tired of apologizing to myself for you and what you've done to me.. and ive tried, to forgive myself for caring about you, theres nothing i can do..
matchbook romance
long time no write for me. oops. well things are like bleh. im very much feeling over joe, which is this mixture of happy and sad. its like, disappointing, more than anything else. im disappointed in myself. but its ok, im not dwelling. i dont even want to see him, it feels so weird. part of me does, yah, but most of me is like fuck that. so whatever, he is gone from my head, at least for now. i have been listening to a lot of matchbook romance lately. one of the kids at school recommended it to me. smart boy!
i have no christmas spirit. its weird. im like.. i dont know. just broke, and im not the happiest girl in the world right now (though i am considerably more happy than i had been since i moved home). i did all my xmas shopping yesterday and today. i still have to get for twon, gaston, and my cousin annemarie.. but i ran out of money so they will have to wait. take that. oooh "car" by brand new just came on. i burned a bunch of my cds onto my computer, so now i listen to music in the house again YAY.
i surprisingly feel like i have nothing to day, despite the fact that i dont even think i have been to my blog in a month. everything is pretty level right now. no drama to report. its killing me to have no drama, actually. im like aching for something dramatic to happen. ooooh im so excited bc garden state comes out on dvd this week. on the 28th. i am soooo all over that. 4 days 4 days! im going to watch it every single day for the rest of my life.
im home alone now. im pretty happy about that. i dont really know what to do with myself. i might watch donnie darko. twon lent it to me, and i think im going to the city this week. i havent watched it yet, so i should, since he made me take it home with me when i said i hadnt seen it. i also have to remember to bring his books back. i have choke and lullaby.
im really cold. what else is new? its december, so naturally i will be complaining of the cold for the next three months. UGH. that feels so dismal. i am hoping that the time flies. so far it has been moving pretty quickly, and that is very good. "all down here from here" is on now, but the acoustic version. soo gooood. i love my new computer. i also love new found glory. <3
the christmas eve festivities are going to begin around 8. so i have another hour and a half. im typing pretty slow, i think, the song has changed again, its now "23" by jimmy eat world. i heard this song on the last episode of one tree hill, before it went on its godforskaen motherfucking hiatus. but im not upset about it. grrrr.. anyway so yah, and i was excited bc i heard "kill" the week before and bought the cd. and "pain" is on tony hawk underground 2. as is "midlife crisis" by faith no more, which makes me very happy. anyway, i saw jimmy eat world on my 18th bday at like coney island high in the city. and i havent liked them since, but this new record has impressed me. i actually really like this song, a lot. its emo. i love emo.
i am worried bc i cant find my dashboard places you have come to fear the most cd. it must be here in this mess somewhere, i just dot know where. but i miss it incredibly so i need to get on finding it. maybe that will be incentive to clean my room.
i am ending this now. hopefully to report more later, like a gift log. woo.
matchbook romance
long time no write for me. oops. well things are like bleh. im very much feeling over joe, which is this mixture of happy and sad. its like, disappointing, more than anything else. im disappointed in myself. but its ok, im not dwelling. i dont even want to see him, it feels so weird. part of me does, yah, but most of me is like fuck that. so whatever, he is gone from my head, at least for now. i have been listening to a lot of matchbook romance lately. one of the kids at school recommended it to me. smart boy!
i have no christmas spirit. its weird. im like.. i dont know. just broke, and im not the happiest girl in the world right now (though i am considerably more happy than i had been since i moved home). i did all my xmas shopping yesterday and today. i still have to get for twon, gaston, and my cousin annemarie.. but i ran out of money so they will have to wait. take that. oooh "car" by brand new just came on. i burned a bunch of my cds onto my computer, so now i listen to music in the house again YAY.
i surprisingly feel like i have nothing to day, despite the fact that i dont even think i have been to my blog in a month. everything is pretty level right now. no drama to report. its killing me to have no drama, actually. im like aching for something dramatic to happen. ooooh im so excited bc garden state comes out on dvd this week. on the 28th. i am soooo all over that. 4 days 4 days! im going to watch it every single day for the rest of my life.
im home alone now. im pretty happy about that. i dont really know what to do with myself. i might watch donnie darko. twon lent it to me, and i think im going to the city this week. i havent watched it yet, so i should, since he made me take it home with me when i said i hadnt seen it. i also have to remember to bring his books back. i have choke and lullaby.
im really cold. what else is new? its december, so naturally i will be complaining of the cold for the next three months. UGH. that feels so dismal. i am hoping that the time flies. so far it has been moving pretty quickly, and that is very good. "all down here from here" is on now, but the acoustic version. soo gooood. i love my new computer. i also love new found glory. <3
the christmas eve festivities are going to begin around 8. so i have another hour and a half. im typing pretty slow, i think, the song has changed again, its now "23" by jimmy eat world. i heard this song on the last episode of one tree hill, before it went on its godforskaen motherfucking hiatus. but im not upset about it. grrrr.. anyway so yah, and i was excited bc i heard "kill" the week before and bought the cd. and "pain" is on tony hawk underground 2. as is "midlife crisis" by faith no more, which makes me very happy. anyway, i saw jimmy eat world on my 18th bday at like coney island high in the city. and i havent liked them since, but this new record has impressed me. i actually really like this song, a lot. its emo. i love emo.
i am worried bc i cant find my dashboard places you have come to fear the most cd. it must be here in this mess somewhere, i just dot know where. but i miss it incredibly so i need to get on finding it. maybe that will be incentive to clean my room.
i am ending this now. hopefully to report more later, like a gift log. woo.
Subscribe to Comments [Atom]