Sunday, September 16, 2007
20 days until i see you. 20 days until i see you. 20 days until i see you!!!!
the downhill part.. so excited. 20 days. it's been 22 of the longest days of my life since you left. and now there are only 20 to go.. i can't wait to tell you i've missed you. i can't wait to see you there, standing as you buzz me into the building. i can't wait, i can't wait, i can't wait.
last night you texted me at 2:47am. 2:47am!!! why? because you'd just been chatting with some randoid who was holding ernie on the back cover of dookie. and for some reason, he was in a suit. and for some reason, i had to know this, at 2:47am. if you didn't still love me, you wouldn't need to tell me this. i texted you today to tell you to watch the mail. i sent the plow united cd. and the cd i made you. you claimed to hate me for it. but oh well. you should listen. because it will show you how much i love you. we texted back and forth a lot today. A LOT. about the new pinback, about how i got a stars cd.. about my fried ravioli dinner. it didn't even jar my heart to see you on okcupid at midnight. because i know that when something happens, you want to tell me. because you still think of me. i can't wait to see you in 20 days. each night means one less day. tomorrow it will be 19. NINETEEN DAYS! 19 seems so much more possible than the original 42. then it will be 18. then 17. before i know it, it will be 5. then it will be tomorrow. and i will be BURSTING with excitement then. i can't wait to hug you. i can't wait to smell you. you always smell the same, like yr silly spray deodorant. right guard. the same stuff dennis and i used to spray when we were smoking pot in the dorms. when i smell you, i remember being 19. but more recently, i smell you and i remember being in love. i'm still in love. so in love. i can't wait to see you.. 20 more days!
i cleaned my mom's house today for hours. my body aches. i'm very tired, but i'm $100 richer. and i won $44 on cashword cards tonight. woooohooooo. usually i regret my split second decisions to stop at 7-11 and pick up some scratch-offs. tonight it paid off. and i'm thrilled. tomorrow i will wake up, i will drive to 7-11 for my coffee (machiatto, actually) and the sunday paper. trade in my cards for 7 more and $24. i will come home and write some lessons. i will perhaps watch a movie. and then i will realize that there are 19 days left.
my heart is bursting with love. and it's all for you. i don't care if you need to be single. you are all i will ever want, you are it. you are the one. my perfect complement. there will never ever be another soul to cross my path who will be more right for me. this i know, and i have never been more sure of anything in my entire 27 and a half years.
i have 20 days left to buy a 1/2" black button to sew onto your stupid green day shirt. it's yr favorite. i will make it whole again, so you can look somewhat presentable when you wear it at least once a week.
i have 20 days to decide what to wear to pinback. sexy? cute? low cut? classic? definitely jeans. and definitely sneakers. but oh to choose a shirt..
i have 20 days to wait before i can envelope you and breathe you and smile to myself and know that i am spending some time with the love of my life. my entire life. perhaps on october 6th it will be mere hours, but someday it will be forever and for the rest of our lives.
i can't wait to see you..
the downhill part.. so excited. 20 days. it's been 22 of the longest days of my life since you left. and now there are only 20 to go.. i can't wait to tell you i've missed you. i can't wait to see you there, standing as you buzz me into the building. i can't wait, i can't wait, i can't wait.
last night you texted me at 2:47am. 2:47am!!! why? because you'd just been chatting with some randoid who was holding ernie on the back cover of dookie. and for some reason, he was in a suit. and for some reason, i had to know this, at 2:47am. if you didn't still love me, you wouldn't need to tell me this. i texted you today to tell you to watch the mail. i sent the plow united cd. and the cd i made you. you claimed to hate me for it. but oh well. you should listen. because it will show you how much i love you. we texted back and forth a lot today. A LOT. about the new pinback, about how i got a stars cd.. about my fried ravioli dinner. it didn't even jar my heart to see you on okcupid at midnight. because i know that when something happens, you want to tell me. because you still think of me. i can't wait to see you in 20 days. each night means one less day. tomorrow it will be 19. NINETEEN DAYS! 19 seems so much more possible than the original 42. then it will be 18. then 17. before i know it, it will be 5. then it will be tomorrow. and i will be BURSTING with excitement then. i can't wait to hug you. i can't wait to smell you. you always smell the same, like yr silly spray deodorant. right guard. the same stuff dennis and i used to spray when we were smoking pot in the dorms. when i smell you, i remember being 19. but more recently, i smell you and i remember being in love. i'm still in love. so in love. i can't wait to see you.. 20 more days!
i cleaned my mom's house today for hours. my body aches. i'm very tired, but i'm $100 richer. and i won $44 on cashword cards tonight. woooohooooo. usually i regret my split second decisions to stop at 7-11 and pick up some scratch-offs. tonight it paid off. and i'm thrilled. tomorrow i will wake up, i will drive to 7-11 for my coffee (machiatto, actually) and the sunday paper. trade in my cards for 7 more and $24. i will come home and write some lessons. i will perhaps watch a movie. and then i will realize that there are 19 days left.
my heart is bursting with love. and it's all for you. i don't care if you need to be single. you are all i will ever want, you are it. you are the one. my perfect complement. there will never ever be another soul to cross my path who will be more right for me. this i know, and i have never been more sure of anything in my entire 27 and a half years.
i have 20 days left to buy a 1/2" black button to sew onto your stupid green day shirt. it's yr favorite. i will make it whole again, so you can look somewhat presentable when you wear it at least once a week.
i have 20 days to decide what to wear to pinback. sexy? cute? low cut? classic? definitely jeans. and definitely sneakers. but oh to choose a shirt..
i have 20 days to wait before i can envelope you and breathe you and smile to myself and know that i am spending some time with the love of my life. my entire life. perhaps on october 6th it will be mere hours, but someday it will be forever and for the rest of our lives.
i can't wait to see you..
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