Monday, September 03, 2007
no i can't forget tomorrow when i think of all my sorrow when i had you there but then i let you go and now its only fair that i should let you know what you should know
i can't live if living is without you, i can't give, i can't give anymore
can't live if living is without you, can't give, i can't give anymore
harry nillson
i can't live if living is without you, i can't give, i can't give anymore
can't live if living is without you, can't give, i can't give anymore
harry nillson
i don't know who originally wrote that song. apparently two dudes. and it's been performed about a gazillion times by everyone from badfinger to air supply to mariah carey to christina aguilera. so i'm just going with harry, since the version i'm so familiar with is from the rules of attraction. although i guess i hadn't realized that the song was sung by a dude. you learn something new every day..
the point is that i don't want to live without you.
it's not that i can't, i guess, but it's too hard. it's nauseating. i can't bear to not know if you'll eventually come around to see that we belong together. i struggle every day with the unsurmountable amount of days that have to pass before you will walk into my life again. will i be over you by then? will i not be thinking of you all the time? 33 days... i guess a lot could happen. october 6.... i want to fast forward. i want to see you before then. maybe i'll make an attempt in a week or two, but i fear you'll tell me you don't think it's a good idea. the percent chance that you will respond as such is huge. you say it's possible that we can meet up in the city for dinner before october 6.. but i don't want to meet up for dinner. i want to watch movies. i want you to realize you can't live without me.
i'm going back to work tomorrow. i woke up around 11 today, but i couldn't gather the motivation to drag myself out of bed. thus i stayed there, cuddling kasha, for three hours. i think i slept a little more, for a couple minutes at a time. i'll take some nyquil later and let it do it's magic on me. i have four alarms set for the morning. i have to focus on waking up before i go to bed or else i'll be a sorry girl. how rad would it be to be late on my first day? not rad at all! i have to shower in the morning.. get myself spiffy. to plan all day..
laundry is in. i need to have clean clothes i guess, though nothing that was dirty were school related. i have to pick out my clothes before bed. probably wear a new pair of pants and a nice shirt. maybe black pants with the striped shirt.. i don't know. i'll decide. it isn't important. i know i'm wearing my wrap dress on wednesday for when i meet the kiddies..
it's labor day and i am home alone. i ran some errands. deposited some money, faxed my registration to the insurance company who is paying for the repairs on my car.. summer died today, and the sun has set. so it's officially over. i know that there are technically something like 20 days of summer remaining, but it's over. 10 more months until summer vacation. but i do have the 13th and 14th off for the jewish holiday. then i also have columbus day off.. and i have other things to look forward to, such as new found glory on oct 28 and brand new on dec 1.. and brand new is in atlantic city, so i'm excited to spend a weekend there.. lose some money. YAY.
i can't wait to get a paycheck.
i can't wait to see you.
i can't wait until the day you realize that i am yr perfect match.
i can't wait until you realize there is no one you would rather spend the rest of yr days and nights with......
all i want out of this world is you. and my cat. the three of us. some babies. us. i love you.
the point is that i don't want to live without you.
it's not that i can't, i guess, but it's too hard. it's nauseating. i can't bear to not know if you'll eventually come around to see that we belong together. i struggle every day with the unsurmountable amount of days that have to pass before you will walk into my life again. will i be over you by then? will i not be thinking of you all the time? 33 days... i guess a lot could happen. october 6.... i want to fast forward. i want to see you before then. maybe i'll make an attempt in a week or two, but i fear you'll tell me you don't think it's a good idea. the percent chance that you will respond as such is huge. you say it's possible that we can meet up in the city for dinner before october 6.. but i don't want to meet up for dinner. i want to watch movies. i want you to realize you can't live without me.
i'm going back to work tomorrow. i woke up around 11 today, but i couldn't gather the motivation to drag myself out of bed. thus i stayed there, cuddling kasha, for three hours. i think i slept a little more, for a couple minutes at a time. i'll take some nyquil later and let it do it's magic on me. i have four alarms set for the morning. i have to focus on waking up before i go to bed or else i'll be a sorry girl. how rad would it be to be late on my first day? not rad at all! i have to shower in the morning.. get myself spiffy. to plan all day..
laundry is in. i need to have clean clothes i guess, though nothing that was dirty were school related. i have to pick out my clothes before bed. probably wear a new pair of pants and a nice shirt. maybe black pants with the striped shirt.. i don't know. i'll decide. it isn't important. i know i'm wearing my wrap dress on wednesday for when i meet the kiddies..
it's labor day and i am home alone. i ran some errands. deposited some money, faxed my registration to the insurance company who is paying for the repairs on my car.. summer died today, and the sun has set. so it's officially over. i know that there are technically something like 20 days of summer remaining, but it's over. 10 more months until summer vacation. but i do have the 13th and 14th off for the jewish holiday. then i also have columbus day off.. and i have other things to look forward to, such as new found glory on oct 28 and brand new on dec 1.. and brand new is in atlantic city, so i'm excited to spend a weekend there.. lose some money. YAY.
i can't wait to get a paycheck.
i can't wait to see you.
i can't wait until the day you realize that i am yr perfect match.
i can't wait until you realize there is no one you would rather spend the rest of yr days and nights with......
all i want out of this world is you. and my cat. the three of us. some babies. us. i love you.
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