Wednesday, January 23, 2008
feeling incredibly insecure tonight. i texted steve before to ask him if he wanted to get together this weekend, and he hasn't responded. that was like 3.5 hours ago. i know i really don't have anything to be insecure about right now, and that he likes me. BUT. i am.
monday we texted for a bit in the evening and he definitely likes me. i already summarized the conversation. obviously he is into what's going on. but i don't know. it's very possible that he's out with friends, or that he never got around to getting a new charger for his phone, since his battery was dying on monday night and he said his charger was broken. i don't know. what i do know is that there is no way he would go out like that, just ignore me. he's a good guy. i hate being so insecure. it comes with the not knowing, and the having no idea what he really wants from this. i'm pretty sure that when he's ready to tell me why he likes hanging out with me that it'll lead to a conversation about what this is and what it could be. and i'm guessing that's why he doesn't need to talk about it yet, because he isn't ready.
i'm working myself up over nothing, and that's a fact. i'll probably hear from him tomorrow or something. maybe. if not, i could always call him friday evening.. i don't know. i can't call him tomorrow because mike will be here. but yah. i also worry that he's not ok. that's a big part of it. i don't know. i'm stupid. that's the biggest fact available to me at this moment.
monday we texted for a bit in the evening and he definitely likes me. i already summarized the conversation. obviously he is into what's going on. but i don't know. it's very possible that he's out with friends, or that he never got around to getting a new charger for his phone, since his battery was dying on monday night and he said his charger was broken. i don't know. what i do know is that there is no way he would go out like that, just ignore me. he's a good guy. i hate being so insecure. it comes with the not knowing, and the having no idea what he really wants from this. i'm pretty sure that when he's ready to tell me why he likes hanging out with me that it'll lead to a conversation about what this is and what it could be. and i'm guessing that's why he doesn't need to talk about it yet, because he isn't ready.
i'm working myself up over nothing, and that's a fact. i'll probably hear from him tomorrow or something. maybe. if not, i could always call him friday evening.. i don't know. i can't call him tomorrow because mike will be here. but yah. i also worry that he's not ok. that's a big part of it. i don't know. i'm stupid. that's the biggest fact available to me at this moment.
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