Sunday, February 10, 2008
my heart feels like it's collapsing.
this morning i dragged myself out of bed at 10. i went to 7-11, bought the times. came home, completed my first sunday puzzle on my own ever in an hour and a half. alone. i texted steve this morning at 11:15 to say "it's yr favorite day of the week. i hope yr enjoying cinnamon rolls and the puzzle. i miss you. a lot. prob don't wanna know that. but it's the truth." he didn't respond. i texted him again after having finished the puzzle saying "i finished the puzzle! sorry to bother you, i'm just really excited and wanted to tell you." he finally responded at 4. "good job! i'll have to talk to you later, real busy today." and, of course, no word again. this i knew. he's keeping busy. he's probably not even sad.
i'm having some major anxiety. i miss him so much my heart is breaking. it's broken already but it's breaking further. i don't know how to make it stop. i hardly cried today. this is a huge bonus, but it doesn't make me feel any better.
i swear my heart is collapsing. i want nothing to do with the rest of my life if it doesn't have him in it.
this morning i dragged myself out of bed at 10. i went to 7-11, bought the times. came home, completed my first sunday puzzle on my own ever in an hour and a half. alone. i texted steve this morning at 11:15 to say "it's yr favorite day of the week. i hope yr enjoying cinnamon rolls and the puzzle. i miss you. a lot. prob don't wanna know that. but it's the truth." he didn't respond. i texted him again after having finished the puzzle saying "i finished the puzzle! sorry to bother you, i'm just really excited and wanted to tell you." he finally responded at 4. "good job! i'll have to talk to you later, real busy today." and, of course, no word again. this i knew. he's keeping busy. he's probably not even sad.
i'm having some major anxiety. i miss him so much my heart is breaking. it's broken already but it's breaking further. i don't know how to make it stop. i hardly cried today. this is a huge bonus, but it doesn't make me feel any better.
i swear my heart is collapsing. i want nothing to do with the rest of my life if it doesn't have him in it.
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